Journaling Schizophrenic

Entry twenty nine: Trouble Don't Rhyme

Can't believe I'm eighteen...and prom is this evening - such a busy week! So I'm sorry for the slow updates...

Anyway, enjoy the chapter :)

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Dexter’s Eighth Response:

Wow. I don’t even know what to say. Since this is your journal I’m going to start by saying congratulations, I’m glad you’ve found someone like Gavin who loves you for who you are. You are very lucky…well in that aspect of your life anyway.

The story so far is great. Marny should definitely help you with your National Novel Writing Book this year. Marny, I don’t mind that you haven’t finished the ending yet, but I look forward to eventually finding out. Now I’m left wondering, what happens to his horrible Uncle Fray? What about the Lady Meridith? Does she change her ways? Does she try to seduce Eachann? Does it work? And does he get caught by her allure? Or will something happen to his parents that he has to go home right away and leave the city mess behind? I don’t know. I might be creative when it comes to things you can see, but as far as coming up with stories, I can only ever come up with the boring, obvious endings, though the last option is very creative if I do say so myself, or I guess you could just call it lazy.

Anyway, on to the real problem at hand; I’m so sorry that Kaaleb did that to you! I never would have expected her to get so violent – she’s just always been so nice to me.

After I read your entry, since you refused to talk to me at school, I went over to Kaaleb's house with every intention of confronting her. And I did, I promise you I stood up to her for you. But at the same time you have to understand she’s my girlfriend, and she helped me when I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I had to figure out what was up with her.

After a bunch of yelling about her beating you up she told me to shut up before I woke her mother up and dragged me into her room. We talked and she eventually explained what her problem was. Her father left her mother for another, prettier woman a few months ago. That left her feeling insecure and scared, especially when her mother moved them here and began drinking and lashing out at her.

When I told her about how close we were, and about how I was helping you work things out through the journal she realised how much I cared for you. This was after that day at the park, so she already knew that you’re beautiful – and don’t say you aren’t because you and I both know that would be a lie. So she felt intimidated and jealous of you and when you were being nice and talking about how good friends we were she snapped. I know I can’t excuse her actions Sammi, but I just want you to know that it wasn’t really personal. And I know that doesn’t really help heal the bruises, but I’m hoping it’ll at least help heal the internal pain of the whole incident

So then I found myself reassuring her that she was pretty too (not using the word “beautiful” was a big mistake let me tell you – how was I supposed to know there was such a big difference?). After she finally accepted my mistake as an ignorant slip up I was forced to tell her she meant more to me than you did, even though that’s not necessarily true yet, but I know how much trouble you can find yourself in when you don’t treat a girl with problems the exact way they want to be treated, ahem.

I told her she was an amazing woman (see, I didn’t mess that one up), and that there was no way I’d leave her for you. “Besides,” I pointed out, “she already has a boyfriend and they are in love so there’s really nothing to worry about.” And then she started crying about the injustice of the world, and “how could someone crazy like her who hears voices in her head land a great guy like that?” then I got all offended and she had to backtrack and tell me that I was “way better than any half gay guy, no matter how hot” he was. Though I have to admit that didn’t make me feel any better about myself, or continuing this relationship with Kaaleb.