Alright, so second post tonight & since it's also pretty short (and I really want to get to the more exciting chapters) I think I'll post entry nine tonight too.
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Entry eight:
Thinking Out Loud. Ok, so how do you think that went? Do you really think it’ll help me? I kind of hope so. Though I don’t understand why you brought up Jessica and my parents. I thought we were going to talk to him about my voices? Or was I missing something when you told me your plan?
Anyway, I will do my best to not get upset at them; but I would still appreciate it if your parents would adopt me. Wouldn’t it be cool to live together?
On a completely unrelated topic, did you know Nadia is telling everyone you two are going out? I guess your afternoon tutoring really had an impact. In any case, I wish you luck in getting yourself out of that.
Back to the schizophrenia, I just wanted to jot down the conversation we just had quickly:
Marny – have any of you ever considered suicide?
Sammi – Marny, that’s a really morbid topic.
Marny – obviously I’m not asking if you’ve ever contemplated committing suicide, just if you’ve ever thought about it in general.
Sammi – well you are in my head, shouldn’t you know?
Sadie – do you expect us to constantly be listening to your thoughts? That’s a little egotistical
Jamie – back off Sadie, no one cares what you have to say
Sammi – thank you Jamie, but isn’t that a little harsh on Sadie?
Jamie – she was being rude first. I was just putting her in her place.
Marny – so as I was about to say, I think suicide is really quite a dramatically fascinating topic
Jamie – yeah, you would.
Sadie – hush boy.
Marny – suicide can be portrayed poetically, tragically or even comically.
Sammi – Marny, are you talking about real-life suicide or acting?
Many – both I guess.
Sadie – I don’t understand why people would want to ruin their lives so horribly, I mean there is absolutely no honour in taking anyone’s life, let alone your own.
Jamie – and you would know all about honour would you Sadie?
Marny – shut up Jamie, it is because people hear voices like yours in their heads that they attempt to commit suicide.
Sammi – hang on, what do you mean they can be comical? I mean, I guess I can understand the poetic and tragic viewpoints, but how is suicide funny?
Marny – oh that’s easy. It’s funny when they royally screw it up. For example, if someone tried to OD on pills and they took like 3 as opposed to a handful, or swallowing vitamins.
Sadie – or the knot unties or the beam/pipe breaks when they try to hang themselves.
Jamie – I personally think the best way to go down by your own hand is to sit in a bubble bath with a toaster with Two Steps from Hell playing in the background.
Sammi – I guess I can see how that scenario might be comical…
Marny – there you go, now you understand.
Sadie – Do you think the ghosts or souls or whatever of suicidal people stay on earth or go to hell or what?
Sammi - I think it depends what their beliefs were, would you like me to test my theory?
Jamie – I think we should stop discussing this, we don’t want to push Sammi into a dangerous situation; because you know, if she goes, we’re all gone.
Marny – How about a Twilight rant?
Sammi – but the books weren’t that bad…
Sadie – The first time.
Marny – and the acting in the movie completely sucked, I mean ugh.
Sadie – I agree, without his accent, Rob Pattinson is gross – especially covered in hair gel and glitter
Jamie - *shudder* On this point I’m going to have to agree with you guys. I mean why would anyone flock obsess over this story?
Sammi – Well at first it did seem pretty romantic, and the plotline seemed okay, but I guess you guys have a justified argument.
Marny – I know I thought of this topic, but since we all agree that the whole Twilight franchise has gotten a bit out of hand-
Sadie – A bit out of hand? More like annoying.
Marny – anyway, I think we should stop discussing it.
Sammi – How about you guys stop discussing things in my head period?
Jamie – We’ll always be here for you.
And then they just faded out. Can you believe how rude they can be?
Speaking of rude, there was this one guy in the waiting room who must really have problems. He kept walking around and purposefully bumping into people, jingling his keys, and flickering the lights. The nurses or secretary or someone – I was busy concentrating on writing down Marny’s story about countess Vivian – got him to sit down and stay quiet. Oh well, that’s crazy people for you I guess.
By the way, I forgot to say thank you for driving me there and treating me to coffee afterwards. This little café is great, even if you have been standing in line for far too long now.
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Journaling Schizophrenic
Teen FictionA teen-aged girl with Schizophrenia gets a journal from her best friend to help her vent. That's all it's for at first, but pretty soon it becomes about more than just writing about the voices in her head (whose names are Marny, Sadie, and Jamie). S...
