"What the hell." Ang inis na bulong ni Aurelia sa kaniyang sarili. Nang isara niya ang pinto ng kaniyang bahay. Pagkahatid niya kay detective Atlas sa ibaba ay nagmamadali siyang bumalik sa itaas ng bahay. She shut the door and leaned her back on the it. It was like she was shutting detective Atlas and her silly feeling na muntik nang magpahamak sa kaniya kanina.
Why did she even thought that, from a moment there he was going to kiss her? And like a fool she was drawn into him that moment.
"I mean I am already drawn to him... I know..." napabuntong-hininga siya at inalis niya ang kaniyang likod mula sa pagkakasandal sa pinto at naglakad siya pabalik sa kaniyang opisina kung saan kanina naroon ni detective Atlas.
Humakbang siya papasok at saka siya naglakad pabalik sa kama kung saan muntik na niyang gawing tanga ang kaniyang sarili.
"Yes I love him." Ang bulong niya. And that scares the shit of her. She's beginning to let her guard down. Alam niya ang payo sa kaniya ni doctor Patrcia. But, it is easier to be said than done. Lalo na sa tulad niyang napakali ng nawala nang dahil sa pagtitiwala at pagmamahal niya sa isang lalaki. Though she was young then, ay pareho pa rin ang kaniyang nadarama. It was still love.
Pero ang kaniyang nararamdaman ay hindi kailanman malalaman ni detective Atlas. May babae pa ring nilalaman ang puso ni detective at hindi niya hahayaan ang sarili niyang maging rebound. Alam niyang masasaktan lamang siya at alam niya kung gaano iyun kasakit.
She can never trust her feelings and she's afraid to trust another man again. She told herself while she embraced herself with her arms.
She shook her head. At saka niya tinalikuran ang kama at naglakad siya palapit sa kaniyang lamesa. She pulled the swivel chair at hinarap niya ang kaniyang computer.
She told him that she will explain to him her observation. But not her being the victim this time. She was not afraid of experiencing the last moment of those victims through their reenactment. She is more afraid of what her heart and what her body felt the moment his big and rough palm touched the sensitive skin of her neck.
It was...erotic. "Ugh," ang kaniyang sambit at saka niya nilinaw ang kaniyang lalamunan. She shook her head and pressed the on button of her computer.
And because hindi na mauulit pa ang kaniyang demonstration using her own self, ay maghahanap siya ng mannequin sa online store. Gusto niya talagang maipakita kay detective Atlas ang huling tagpo sa pagitan ng biktima at ng killer. Somehow the trail of blood and the way they were killed ay magsasabi sa kanila ng katauhan ng killer sa pisikal na aspeto.
She searched the net para makahanap ng mannequin. Gusto niya yung mabibili niya as soon as possible. She also needs a mannequin na magagalaw ang bawat parte ng katawan.
Maybe she will look for a life size toy? Or doll? Ang tanong niya sa sarili.
"Toys...toys...female, lifesize," ang bulong niya habang tumitipa ang kaniyang mga daliri sa keyboard.
At naglabasan ang iba't ibang image at shop sa kaniyang computer screen. Isa-isa niyang tiningnan ang mga ibinigay sa kaniyang listahan.
"Found it." Ang bulong niya.
***
Atlas smoothed her palm on the new sheets ng kaniyang kama. Pagkauwi niya ay idinaan niya ang mga bagong biling bedsheets na regalo sa kaniya ni doctor Aurelia sa laundry shop sa ibaba lamang ng condo building.
BINABASA MO ANG
DIAMOND KNOT Detective Atlas Carberry book 2 (completed)
Mystery / ThrillerFeeling humiliated from his previous case that almost lead to a terror attack. Detective Atlas Carberry decided to return his badge and resign his detective position and leave the police force. For him his lack of judgment almost failed him to see t...
