Gangsters paradise

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Juli 4 2004

I woke up hearing Marshall snoring. I don't know how much we slept but I'm still tired fucking tired. I looked over at Marshall, he sleeping so peacefully. He's so fucking beautiful when he looks so peaceful. I never thought I'll fall for a men like him. He's crazy as hell, sexy, beautiful, he haves such a beautiful smile. Crazy attitude and all that shit but I fucking can't be without him.
I'm still asking myself how I felt so bad for him and how he also felt in love with me. I mean from all his songs he's dissing literally everyone and every female he had something with. And then you think this motherfucker will never find a girl because of his attitude and the way he raps about woman, but when you meet him and spend time with him, he's really not like he show himself at the tv.
He can be a rude asshole, and he can go on your nerves when he's acting like he knows everything and all that shit but he can also be the most nicest person.
Agh god.. you know sometimes I'll like that people will also see him like I do. He's a good man, a good father. Everyone makes mistakes but that's why he's doing all this. Because he wants his daughter to have a better future then he had.
Fuck, thinking about him like this makes me feel so bad that sometimes I talk to him the way I did yesterday.
He deserves so much better.
I slowly closed my eyes again after i stopped to think about him and studying his face.
And I felt myself falling back asleep.
When I woke up Ty was still sleeping. She's so fucking beautiful. All I know that she's so fucking good for me and that I don't deserve her. I fucking lied to her about her father and it makes me feel so miserable. I want her to know but I know she's going to be so angry with me. Fucking hell, I've never been so nervous about a woman getting angry at me. Normally I'll be the one that gets angry and acts like a stupid fuck but with Ty is different. It's not because of her family, it's because of her. Her angry issues are worser then mine. The way her entire face changes when she's getting angry makes me to think not twice but four times about it if i wanna say something to her.
I'm watching her sleeping, her beautiful full lips, and her light chocolate color skin.. so fucking beautiful.
I slowly started to kiss her neck.
Goddamn it I swear to god if y'all could smell her perfume the way I do every fucking day I promise you, you'll fall in love with her either.
It's a smell I can't even describe. It's so rare.. but it's her perfume.
I kissed slowly her neck and pulled her closer to me.
"Baby.." I whispered
"Shut up, I wanna sleep."
Yep. Here we go, this is the Tyla we all know. She's not fucking morning person but Im sure it's not fucking morning anymore.
I never meet a girl that loves to sleep so much then she does. But honestly I love this, she's so fucking special.
"Come on gorgeous wake up.." I kissed her beautiful lips
"I'll kick your ass Marshall. Just let me sleep." She said and turned around
Fucking psycho girl.
I hugged her from behind and pulled her more closer to me.
I have a fucking boner because of her beautiful ass but I'll control it. I don't want her to think I only want to fuck her the entire time. I mean I do wanna fuck her until she can't walk anymore, I can't fucking resist her at all. But it's just, I love holding her in my arms and having her close to me and my body.
"Yo! Wake up fuckers. Let's eat!" Bizarre knocked on the door
"Shut up!" Tyla screamed
"Baby.."
"Morning.."
"Yes you finally awake.." I smiled at her
"Mhh.. yeah because of your non sleeping ass."
"Stop the attitude.." I said joking with her
"I had a dream that you were cheating on me."
"With who?"
"Oh so did had something else with a other bitch?"
"No. I didn't babe."
"Then why would you ask with who? You could just say that you didn't do anything with other woman while you were with me."
"This sleeping is not good for you. Hopefully your going to see that one day." I said standing up from bed
I mean I don't know if that's cheating. I did make out with some groupies in club.
It's not that fucking important, I just love the fact how beautiful she is when she's getting jealous.
"So you did had something with a other bitch? Huh.."
"Baby listen.. we wer.."
"Save that shit. I don't give a fuck. Go on and cheat on me but I'll not fucking stay on your side just so you know mr Mathers." She said looking in my eyes
"Baby come on don't be like this."
She ignored me and went out of the room.
Fuck she drives me insane.
I don't even remember when I did that shit. I don't even know if we were together when I kissed those chicks.
Now she'll all mad about this shit. Wait until she finds out about her father. She's going to kick my ass. I already know.
"Morning proof.." I said sitting down next to proof and bizarre
"Morning girly.." bizarre smiled at me
"So how long we still have?" I asked
"I don't fucking know.. but yo I love your country but I won't fucking fly this many hours in my life girl." Swift said
"Don't be a bitch Swifty.." I said
"How am I the bitch here when this motherfucker almost cried because he's bed wasn't comfortable." Swift said pointing at bizarre
"Poor Biz.." I said touching he's almost bald head
"Yeah poor me.. see at least she loves me.." bizarre said and smiled at me
"Nah she loves me more. Right Ty, I'm your older brother girl.." proof said and puts his arm around me
"I love all of you. Even though you go on my nerves I like all of you."
"But you love me the most right Ty.." Marshall said coming towards us
"Ugh.. see this motherfucker here.. I don't love him or like him. You see guys I had a dream he cheated on me. And when I asked him if he did he's answer was "with who?" ."
"Mother fucker stupid ass.." proof said with a serious face
"Ty baby.. don't be like this."
"I don't even wanna talk to you.." I said and stood up from the table
"Girl don't be mad at him. You know he loves you."
"If you love someone you don't CHEAT!" I said
"I love you psycho.. YOU HEAR ME? I said I LOVE YOU.." Marshall came to me and yelled in my ear
"Fuck off white ass.." i said
"Fucking pussy.." Marshall said
"Asshole."
"Big ass.."
"White ass."
"Small titis."
"Small dick." I said
"OHHHHHHHH SHITTT! Damn slim!" Proof said and the others were laughing
"I'll show you later who haves a small dick." Marshall said
"No need to. I don't fuck with mens that cheats on me. In fact I don't want a men that every woman can touch. IN FACT I DONT WANT YOU OR YOUR DICK AT ALL." I gave him a small air kiss
"I told you she's a psychopath." Marshall said to the others