Gangsters paradise

Page 35

Juli 7 2004

After freaking the fuck up for not understanding what's going on around me. We finally arrived in La. It was a long ass flight and fucking stressful. Marshall tried his best to apologize to me in every way he could but I'm just to mad and sad at the same time to give him a other chance to fuck with me the way he wants. I'll have enough of time to talk to him and if not that's how it is. I ain't gonna run after him. I don't want a men that every woman can have. If he thinks I'll be together with him and I'll accept every bullshit he's going to do or say well you got me wrong Marshall because that won't happen not even over my dead body.
I started to freak more it because this drive feels like forever.
"WHEN ARE WE GOING TO BE THERE?" I yelled
"20 minutes ma'am." The driver said
"Thanks.." I said trying not to be a bitch
"Calm down girl. We're here for you everything is going to be alright." Proof said
"You don't tell me to calm the fuck down. My father is dead. I'm not gonna calm down. You calm the fuck down cause I don't need any of you to be on my side. Fucking liars." I said to proof
"Ty.. you know we all love you like our younger sister. We didn't mean to lie to you." Bizarre said
"Sure you didn't.." I said under my breath
I don't give a fuck if they love me or not. Or if they going to be on my side or not. They fucking lied to me about my father being dead. And while they were lying to me I was all happy fucking with Marshall. While my father was dead.. FUCKING BITCH!
"Hey.. everything is going to be alright baby." Marshall said
"Didn't i fucking told you to stop calling me like that? Yes I did. And didn't I told you that I don't want any of you here? Yeah I also said that! AND DIDN'T I SAID YOU AND THEM WILL GO BACK TO DETROIT AND ILL STAY HERE BECAUSE BETWEEN US IS OVER? Didn't I said that? I fucking did." I said to Marshall
"YO YOU NEED TO STOP ACTING LIKE A FUCKING BITCH! You got me? Not just me but them too are sorry for lying to you about it. I told you, you really need to grow up more. Still a fucking kid." Marshall said to me and I saw Proof giving him "wtf" eye contact
"The only kid here is you. 32 years old and you still act like a fucking teenage boy that doesn't know what to do with his life. That's what you are. The only thing I know is that I got more balls then all of you all will ever have. Don't fucking tell me I'm a bitch when y'all are the ones that fucks with more groupies then I change my clothes."
"Yo you better watch your mouth or I swear to god were done Tyla. I fucking have enough of you acting like a bitch every time. I told I'm sorry a million times for cheating on you for lying to you for fucking everything and your still mad on me. The fuck you want from me then?"
"We're done since the moment you choose to lie to me. And I don't give a fuck you have enough of me because I also have enough of you being a fucking slut. Fucking thinking your a man just because you have a dick and because you fuck womans."
"I swear.."
"Listen Tyla, imma talk because this asshole right here clearly doesn't know how to talk right. We all are sorry. MARSHALL, is also sorry for everything. We understand that it's your father and that your sad that he's gone but you also need to think about that you still have spooky and all of your cool cousins and us. Your not alone girl. I swear to god your not alone." Proof said touching my hand
"The only thing y'all don't understand is that my brother is going to run this shit now. From now on I'll not have any brother anymore and just a fucking boss." I said with tears in my eyes
"Come here girl.. we got you. We promise we're going to be here for you." Proof hugged me "right Marshall.." proof kicked Marshall foot
"Fuck this bitch." Marshall said
"We're here ma'am." Driver said
"Alright let's go." Proof said
We all got out of the car but as Marshall tried to come out of the car I turned around to him.
"Yeah.. fuck this bitch. Don't come here again." And I closed the cars door in his face him staying in the car
I don't give a fuck what his thinking right now. But I know that the boys are being more honest then he'll ever be. Right now I trust more Proof and the others then his white ass.
"You aight girly?" Bizarre asked as I tried to open the garden door
"Y.. yeah, I'm scared."
"It's aight. Don't be, you got this." Bizarre said
"Thanks Biz.." I smiled at him
As I opened the door the entire garden outside was full with funeral flowers.
So it's real..
Proof and the others walked behind me as I was walking behind the house. Were I knew that the back door is open.
"Spooky.." I said as I entered the house and made a cross
"Tyla?" I heard spooky coming downstairs
I immediately run in his arms when I saw him
This were I couldn't control my tears anymore because I saw his face how sad it was.
"Im sorry sis.. I swear to god we tried to stop him from doing it." Spooky said
"It's.. it's okay, you guys gave your best for everything." I said and hugged him harder
"I wanted to tell you but I was scared for how your going to react. So I told Marshall just to bring you home and then I'll try to talk to you. But honestly I don't even know what to say. All I know is that I'm sorry for not being strong enough to protect him. It should be me in his place." Spooky said
"Hey.. don't say that. No one deserves to die. Especially when it comes to that one person. God had other plans with our father. You always did a great jobs when it came to him. He's always going to be proud of you. Just don't ever say that again. I love you big bro."
"I love you too sis.." he kissed my forehead and hugged me again