My Mind.

04/02/13

I'd like to apologize for the unusual amount of cussing...

Suicide watch.

Fucking.

Suicide.

Watch.

I am on suicide watch.

For the people that don't know what that is...

I'm not allowed to be left alone.

I have to be watched over 24/7.

The last three days have been bad.

Parents.

Worried.

Sick.

I decided to confess to my mom.

I told her.

Shit.

Why?

I don't know.

I felt alone.

Desperate.

Desperate times calls for desperate measures.

But why did I have to tell her?

Suicide came up.

I was half forced to tell her.

Then I was forced to tell her the ways I had thought about doing it...

That was fun.

My dad now knows.

I feel so ashamed.

So dirty.

So ugly.

This didn't help.

No.

Not.

One.

Fucking.

Bit.

I'm on fucking suicide watch.

Scream.

Screams.

Screaming.