My Mind.

09/01/13

I'm like a numb arm.

I have no feeling and what ever I do I cannot move.

I'm dragging myself through life.

I'm not just going through the motions I've made a home in them.

A safe, dark home.

A home where only I can hurt myself.

I'm safe from people.

From what they want from me.

From their disappointment of who I am.

I'm over here in the dark refusing to move.

Why?

I'm not sure.

I'm so aware, yet I don't move.

I no longer know what motivation is.

It's something I had once.

I can't even remeber it, just to want it back.

I don't try to be like society

I don't care about society.

I hate society.

Fuck society.

I'm something you see in the corner of your eye, but never figure out what it was that you saw.

I'll keep you wondering.

Maybe you feel me, but my temperature isn't to your satisfaction.

Well, too bad for you becuase I'm not here to satisfy.

I'll wait over here.

I'll watch until it ends.

I'll watch everyone break and crumble waiting for someone to see me.

And maybe to kiss my sad lips.

And tell me "I love you."

Hey guyz it's been a while...I was going to apologize when I realized this is my journal. I write what I want, when I want. Anyways, I feel like shit 24/7. I feel such a scary numbness it gives me shivers sometimes. Does anyone else know how I feel? Well I love you all. You're fucking beautiful. Don't ever forget that.