KYLE
Naglalakad ako papunta sa parking lot para pumasok habang nakasunod sa akin si Alison. I keep on shaking my head with disbelief dahil sa mga naririnig ko sa kaniya na kung ano anong mga salita, the influece that Nicholai gave her is so much already.
"You should atleast try and give him a chance kuya. He's a nice person, I can assure you." Si Alison bago pumasok sa loob ng sasakyan.
I open the driver's door side at pumasok na rin.
"Kung gusto mo magpaliwag sa lalaki na yan, then go ahead. Hindi ka rin naman nakikinig sa akin so just do it. Why do you have to tell me to get close with him pa." I pushed and turned the key inside the ignition then started to drive palabas ng bahay.
As much as I want na makialam sa gusto niyang gawin sa relationship niya sa iba, ayoko na rin makisali kasi at the end of the day desisyon niya pa rin naman ang masusunod. And somehow I feel that I have to lose my tight grip on her dahil baka nasasakal na siya sa akin, plus she's also an adult na and can decide on her own. Gabay nalang talaga at mga payo ang maibibigay ko sa kaniya, still, I can't do anything about it anyway. So bakit pa ako makikialam.
"Of course kuya you know the best for me. If you get to trust Nicholai, then it means I can trust him as well." Rason nito pabalik sa akin.
I stopped at the red light at tumingin sa kaniya ng maigi. My cold stares and my irritated look made her eyes widened a bit.
"Una sa lahat, thank you for acknowledging me as your older brother. Na alam ko ang nakakabuti para sa'yo. And pangalawa, hindi naman ako ang balak ligawan niyan eh. It's you, so ikaw ang magdecide kung magtitiwala ka ba diyan."
I look back at the road when light turned green. Inabot ko ang gear at binago ito to continue my drive.
"But for me? I'll never trust that guy. Well siguro if he does something that shows he's trustworthy, then maybe I could. Pero it would take a lot of time for me to trust that Nicholai."
Narinig ko siyang bumuntong hininga kaya tumingin ako saglit. Her attention is now outside the window. I know she's thinking about doing something about this. Kilala ko si Alison, and just like me, she won't stop until she gets what she wants.
Why does she have to make a big deal about whether I trust this guy or not. Well, big deal nga naman talaga sa akin yon since we're talking about serious relationship here. And the fact na sa playboy niya pa balak makipagrelasyon. That's some risky shit to be honest. You're risking not only your body, not that I'm saying Nicholai is some dirty manwhore dahil halata naman sa itsura niya na malinis siya, but you're also risking your heart getting broken.
And even if somehow I get to trust Nicholai, hindi mawawala sa isip ko ang pagiging handa sa bagay na maaari niyang gawin, na ikakasira ng tiwala ko sa kaniya. I will always remain wary of people, of men, like him.
"Message me if you want me to pick you up."
Inabot niya ang kaniyang bag from the backseat and look at me with her pleading eyes.
"Kuya, just... try. Okay? For me lang, atleast try for me." she smiled softly at me and her eyes show a small glint of hope.
I close my head and breathe out a heavy sigh. She does this kind of antics everytime na hindi ako pumapayag sa gusto niya. Alam niya na kaya niya akong madaan sa mga ganitong tinginan.
"Just go to your class na. You'll get late." I said in a calm voice and looked at her.
Alison nodded her head and smiled bago bumaba ng sasakyan. Sinundan ko siya ng tingin hanggang sa makapasok na siya sa loob ng building nila.
