Hlelolwenkosi

Chapter 40

Two weeks later

Hlelolwenkosi's POV

I am finally going home. The doctor discharged me a few minutes ago but someone has to fetch me as I'm still in stitches. I haven't had the courage to look at myself, I have been trying by all means to stay away from the mirrors since my ex scarred me. My legs are ruined and I doubt I will ever wear anything that reveals my legs.

I still have to confront my mom and grandmother about the whole arranged marriage. The fact that they knew makes me more upset because if it was not for them , I wouldn't have been here. Maybe I would have tried to work things out with Nkosiyabo
but now it's a bit too late for that.

I need to call my mom so that she can get here as soon as possible.

" Ma please come to the hospital kuya phuthuma (it's urgent) " I said

Obviously I have to exaggerate a little bit so that she can be here as fast as she can because honestly  speaking I miss being home.

The nurse who is supposed to help me take a bath came and helped me in the shower and that's when I actually saw my reflection. I am no longer recognizable, I have scratches all over my face ngathi umuntu ubecaba ( having incisors) and I also have a stitch on my forehead with a blue eye under my eye.

" Ungakhathazeki mntanam ( don't worry my child) you haven't changed at all , you are still beautiful and these cuts on your face, shows how much of a survivor you are and how strong you. " The nurse said.

Nurse Mthembu has been nothing but a darling to me. Her treatment and everything was top notch and I can proudly say that I found another mother but right now she is not helping. She usually has words of motivation but today feels like she is trying to convince me.

" Kanjani ma ?( How ma ) These cuts shows how much of a broken person I am. Yazi I wish I didn't come back because this life has been nothing but a painful life. I was not born for a purpose instead I am a curse that is wanted by people. Ngikhathele ma , ngikhathele angisafuni lutho ngizwile yilempilo.( I am tired ma , I'm tired. I don't want anything I have had it. )I don't even know how am I going to go forward from here , I just want to rest ngizwile ( I've had it)" I said crying

The pain is too much. No words can describe my pain. I don't know what have I done in this world to be punished like this. I can't, I am tired everything is replaying in my mind like it was yesterday. How I was beaten up everyday  by someone who I loved , I remember how hard he tried to penetrate himself inside me how he used his fingers to inflict pain on me. As much as the doctor said I'm still a virgin but I don't feel like one, I feel dirty and unpure.

" Sshh ngane yam ekugcineni nawe uzokuthola ukujabula. Qinisela nje wena sekuzokhanya. ( Sshh my child in the end you will find happiness. Just be patient the end is near. ) " Nurse said

" Ngiyakuzwa ma. ( I hear you) " I said

The nurse helped me wear my onzies and took me back to my bed where I found Nkosiyabo waiting for me. I don't know what does he want after he left that day and never came back.

" Your mom sent me to come and fetch you. " He said

I could have easily requested a cab but because I can't leave on my own I am forced to go with Nkosiyabo.

" Okay let me check if nothing is left behind. " I said leaving Nkosiyabo surprised.

I went to bathroom to check if nothing is left and took a look at myself. I found myself crying , trying hard to suppress my cries but I couldn't until I felt a pair of hands pulling me closer to them.

" Ungakhali MaNyambose wam. Ngiyaxolisa kakhulu ngakho konke engikwenzile nengikakwenzanga.( Don't cry MaNyambose I am really sorry for everything that I did and that I didn't do). I am sorry that I didn't try enough to reach out to you , I am sorry for being stupid thinking that you are the one who wrote that letter. Ngiyaxolisa Hlelolwenkosi ( I'm sorry Hlelolwenkosi) " he said while trying to calm me down

His words made me release a loud sob  that I have been trying to keep inside. He comforted me and I felt safe in his arms and for once I felt the connection between us.

" Let's go home your family is waiting for you. " He said while wiping my tears using his thumb.

Who would have thought that Nkosiyabo can be a darling when he wants, from being my bully to being my comforter. He took my stuff and we went to the reception. I had to sign my discharge forms there and there was this young woman older than us who kept on looking at Nkosiyabo seductively. Nkosiyabo could  see it but didn't do anything about it. The woman came to us and  already I was feeling irritated. I tried to leave the woman with Nkosiyabo but that's not what Nkosiyabo wanted instead he held my waist and brought me even closer to him.

" Hi  can I please talk to your brother please just for a few minutes. " The woman said with the most irritating voice ever 

I was about to leave them but Nkosiyabo held me even harder.

" Sthandwa sam asikho isidingo sokuthi uhambe. Mama ngingakusiza ngani ?( My love there is no need for you to leave. Mama how can I help you?) " Nkosiyabo said

The look on the woman made me want to laugh but I decided against it.

" Nevermind Nx" she said and left.

As soon as she left ngivele ngamuhleka umama wabantu. ( I laughed at the poor woman). Surely the woman felt embarrassed but my heart was doing a backflip and for what, I don't know. We left the hospital and went to parking lot where I froze. I remembered that I was taken in the parking lot and what if Nkosiyabo will also kidnap me.

" Hlelo I am not going to take you against your will we can call your mom to confirm. " He said

" Please do " I said because I was not willing to take any chances again.

He called my mom but as soon as I saw that he is I told him to end the call. Did I mention that he no longer drives himself instead he has a chauffeur. The guy is living it.