shivian: a forbidden love 🖤🫶🏻

chapter 5: coffee

Siobhans pov:

I'm in a really bad mood after the conversation we have, so I get outside and take a breather.

I find myself walking around the carpark before I hear a familiar chirpy voice shout, "Good morning."

It's Vivan, but to be truthfully honest, I'm not really in the mood to talk to her or anyone else right now. If I feel bad if I didn't say anything back, though, I've become fond of her.

"Morning." I responded quite coldly.

"Ooh, somebody got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning."

Of course. She thinks she knows everything. I feel bad for how I'm acting because in the short time that I have known her, she has been nothing but nice to me and in return I'm being a bitch.

"For your information this is just how I always am." I said to her angrily. I really am trying to be nice but there's just so much going on that I am having to deal with.

"No its not. I've been told all about Siobhan serpent the woman who used to walk around the sister nursery with a smirk on her face all the time."

I can't lie, I'm really impressed that she knows that but also curious as to who told her.

"You been told? You you've made a friend then have you?" I really can't help the fact that I'm acting so cold towards her. I really am trying to be nice.

Even though I am being a total bitch, she isn't running out of patience with me and she is being surprisingly understanding.

"Ceertinly have a lovely chap named Stephen, I think you might now him."

STEPHNAN? Oh God I bet he's told her all about my homophobic views but after running into vivian that one day, I can't help but think against those views.

"I'm sure Stephen had some wonderful things to say about me." I said through gritted teeth.

"He did enlighten me about your more homophobic views, yeah."

I knew he told her. I hope she won't think less of me because I am really hoping to get to know her better. I have a feeling that once we get to know eachother, we are going to get along just fine.

"You ever given any thought as to why you feel like that?"

I have to think of a response to that. I can't tell her exactly what I'm thinking because then I'll have to go into details about Roger and that's not something I'm ready for. YET.

Fuck it I'm going to play dumb hopefully she doesn't see through it this time. "What do you mean."

She raises an eyebrow at me and says "well alot of these views sometimes stem from self loathing some just wondering if this is a the call is coming from inside the house sort of thing. "

Oh my God, this girl can read me like a book how On God's green earth does she know me THIS well I've only ever met her twice.

I tell her to go physcoanalyze somebody else because I am not in the mood.

Again this girl is so observant.

"Now now don't go blaming it on yout mood just a second ago you said that this is just how you always are."

I sigh and try to get out of this conversation I simply don't have the time for it and it's only a matter of time before Autumn and marjorie start to wonder where I am.

"If there is nothing else." I hope there isn't anything else and if there is hopefully it's not on this topic. God I'd rather carry on the argument with autumn them be in this one.

I try to walk away but she stops me and tells me that there is one more thing that she would like to talk to me about.

"What?" I reply even more angry then I was before and alot more angry then what I anticipated.

"When it comes to loosing friends and alienating people, you very clearly wrote the book." I sigh again but she isn't done there.

"However in New to town and I'd like to make more then just one friend so if your ever free and want to grab a coffee we-"

She feels like she is forced to stop the conversation because my phone starts getting spammed again just like it did the first time that I ever met her.

Of course it was Roger there's nobody else it could have been I'm too busy trying to respond to the notifications that he had been sending to notice that she left.

"If I'm ever free and want to-"

I notice that she's gone so I try and walk away too. I knew this would happen.

He has ruined my life completely of course he ruins my one opertunity to make a friend ad well. God if I had the strength I would actually kill him.

I don't get far before I hear Viv calling out my name. I turn around faster then the speed of light to see what she wants. I am so happy that she stopped me from walking away, I absolutely love talking to her.

"Siobhan, here is my landline number."

I pull my phone back out of my pocket so I can put the number I to my phone but she grabs my hand and tells me to keep it next to the phone line at home.

She smiles at me and tells me that we are going to do this old school. I'm probably not going to have that many chances to ring her but as soon as I do, that will be the first thing I do.

"If ever you wanna grab a coffee ring my landline we can arrange a time and place to meet and we will both turn up with no mobiles."

Sh must have seen the confusion in my face when she said no mobiles. She can genuinely read me like a book.

"If I have to hear that thing ding one more time I'm going to throw it against a wall."

My mood changed drastically I was so glad that I finally met someone who understands me and is willing to get to know me for who I am. She will soon  realize that I'm not as bad as people make me out to be.

"Very well ill ring you." I respond.

" good I'll be home from 6pm tonight the two of us can meet for a coffee and we won't be interrupted by Mr peristant texter."

She goes to walk away I can't help buy stare at her Raven black hair and how perfectly it sits on her shoulders.

She can't of seen me staring but she turns back around and says "oh uh Stephen also informed me about a certain nick name that Mr relentless calls you."

I know exactly the one that she is talking about and it gives me the ick. He calls me mummy quite alot of the time. Especially when he is using me. When he's not using me, he calls me shibby which Is why I get mad when anyone else calls me that.

Obviously I don't tell vivian about all of that but she will figure it out for herself sooner or later.

Vivian goes to walk away once again and I do the same. I get a really big shock when she grabs my arm and pulls me towards her.

I can't say I hate it....

I spent a few seconds staring into her eyes before she leant in and kissed me. I couldn't help but kiss her back.

Oh my God, I just kissed a girl??? I didn't exactly hate it but If Roger finds out I am dead.

"Goodbye Viv, I'll call you.

With that she walks away.

I know it's wrong but after kissing her I can't help but wonder if she is the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I'm too worried about what other people might have to sat about it. I should probably get advice from someone.

Then it clicks. CHARLOTTE. she has been through the exact same as me before she got with mia. I just have to figure out a way to talk to her without Roger or anyone else finding out....

Then I can approach Vivian again. And hopefully spend the rest of my life with her.