shivian: a forbidden love 🖤🫶🏻

Chapter 11: roger.

A/N  I'm sorryyyyy gotta add a tiny bit of drama.. TW: Roger, homophobia and strong language.

Vivians pov:

Me and Siobhan got rudely awakened at half past 7 this morning when we heard someone banging on the front door trying to get in.

I could see the fear on siobhans face and in her eyes. I knew exactly who it was.

Siobhan only gets this scared when it comes to one person. I know I have to do everything I can to protect her, even if it means me getting injured.  It would all be worth it just for knowing that my girlfriend is okay she is my top priority when Jamie isn't around.

"Shib, I'm going downstairs. Wait here, sweet girl, you will be okay. I can promise you that."

"Viv don't. Just leave him. He will go away eventually. I genuinely can't have you getting hu-"

Before Siobhan can Finnish her sentence, we hear glass shatter all over the living room floor. There's no doubt he's in the house. He has to be. There's no way he would just destroy the window and then leave.

I start to panic slightly more, too, but I have to try and stay strong for Siobhan. I can feel my heart rate increase rapidly. I don't know what to do. I grab Siobhan and pull her up so that her head is resting on my chest.

I really need to go downstairs and set this man straight, but I can't risk leaving her on her own.

"Stay hear, darling. I'm going to check it out." I said with a shaky voice, Siobhan could sense my fear from a mile away.

"Vivian no. You are not going anywhere. You need to stay here. We have to be quiet, and he might just go away."

I knew deep down that he wasn't going to go away untill he got what he wanted which is probably Siobhan but i need to keep her calm so I decide to stay with her for a bit longer.

She holds me as tight as she can and refuses to let go.

A few more minutes pass, and I have absolutely no idea what is going on with Roger. I look down at Siobhan and hesitate for a moment. I decided to go against what she said and start making my way downstairs to see what Mr. possessive wants.

Siobhan notices me trying to leave, and she grabs my arm, not hard enough to hurt but hard enough, so I know that I need to listen.

"Vivian, listen to me. If you go down there, you are going to get yourself seriously injured, and there is nothing I can do to protect you from him. Please stay here so that i know you're safe."

I never thought Siobhan would be protective of me, but I guess anything can happen when you finally find someone who you care about with your heart. I know that I would die for her in an instant, but she just wouldn't let me.

I look down at Siobhan one more time. I can hear Roger getting more aggressive, searching through every room trying to find us.

My heart is twisting because of the worries that Siobhan has about me getting hurt. I can tell that she is absolutely terrified that he is going to do the same things to me that he once did to her, and she doesn't want to lose me. Quite frankly, I don't want to lose her either.

Siobhan tries to comfort me through the tears that are streaming down her face. I try to think of a reply that will calm her down rather than make her more worried.

"Darling, trust me, I will be absolutely fine... I promise... I just want to make sure that it's nothing sinister." I say my voice still clearly shaky.

She holds me Tighter then before and whispers in my ear, "I'm not living without you."

Okay I can't lie, that's enough to convince me to stay with her but Roger is still in the house and he could walk up the stairs any minute and see us in a tight hug, both crying wearing eachothers clothes.

Siobhan can sense that a part of me Stull wants to go downstairs and put this man in his place. She can tell by  the sighs that are coming out of my voice and by how tight I am holding onto her.

"Vivi, he can and will kill you. If he sees you and knows that I am here, he will kill us both. He is the most homophobic person in the town. You can't go. You're not going. I'm not letting you. At least if he finds us both in here together, we can work as a pair to defend ourselves to him, but apart, he could destroy us both."

Siobhan looks up at me and pulls me in for a long, hard kiss.

I know it's not the time to be kissing as there is Roger in the house and who knows what he is going to do to us but Siobhan is just irresistible and who am I to decline a kiss to my girlfriend?

While we are still kissing, we hear a very angry Roger barge into my bedroom.

I freeze in fear, Siobhan buries her face back into my chest and lets out silent tears.

Roger is absolutely mortified at the sight of us and lashes out at Siobhan.

"Really. You leave me with no valid explanation and then you start fucking a woman? Shibby. I own your arse. Now you either come with me right this instant or I kill your little fuck toy."

He did not just say all that to her face. I can't let her go with him. It's not happening I'm not loosing the woman I love. We have only been dating for less then 12 hours, I am not loosing her. I can't live without her.

I have fell so hard for this girl. Mauve I should stand up to him.

"You don't get to tell Siobhan what she is doing. You can't get away with taking that tone on her anymore either. This is the woman that I love and I will not be having some middle aged irrelevant man telling her what she can and can't do.

You are not threatening this girl either. And you are definitely not going to do anything to me or her, she is happy and she is loved and she gave you many reasons why she left in the note that she left you.

She even made you food everyday after you would abuse her and use her every night. She was worried to leave because of the things you would do to her."

Shit did I just say I love siobhan out loud???? Fuck.

Roger doesn't say another word. He starts to leave the bedroom and I pull Siobhan back up for another kiss.

Just as I kiss her, he turns around and sees it.

"Pair of fucking slags. This is outrageous. I shouldn't see my possession kissing another woman it's WRONG."

Before I can argue back, he basically runs over to the bed and drags Siobhan up.

I try and chase him but he is faster then me and alot more powerful.

This could be the end of me and Siobhan and I never got to say to say I love you to her before she left.

I felt hopless. There's nothing I can do to bring her back.