shivian: a forbidden love 🖤🫶🏻

chapter 22: waiting game

A/N, this is just for Kayleigh_May_Roberts your welcome queen

A few weeks have passed since the day that vivian asked Siobhan to marry her. On this particular night, Jamie was staying at his aunties house with his cousins.

However, the pair haven't done a single bit of wedding planning. There's something bigger in their minds that they can't push away no matter how hard they try.

Siobhan has known ever since her first date with vivian that she wants nothing more than to build a family with her. Obviously, they already had jamie, but sionhan wasn't biologically his mother, and she wanted a baby that would belong to her and vivian.

Siobhan had always dreamed of being pregnant, feeling excited about the life that could grow inside her. Little does Siobhan know.. Vivian feels the exact same way. They just don't want to scare each other with the thought as 5 year old jsmie was already a hamdful for the pair.

Over time, Siobhan tried to push the idea of a baby out of her head and wanted to try and focus on the wedding planning instead, but nothing was working. The idea of having a baby with vivian wouldn't leave her mind. She's no longer with Roger. She has no reason to be scared. Deep down, she knows that vivian will support her idea of having a baby, but only if she's sure it's what Siobhan really wants in life.

As more time went by,  neither of the girls could push the idea of a baby out of their head. Siobhan was the first to open her mouth about it.

"Viv... I think I want to have a baby with you..." vivians mouth dropped right open. She was not prepared for Siobhan to say that suddenly, although she couldn't deny the fact that she was feeling the exact same as her fiance.

"Bon bon, I love that idea, I'd be more than happy to have a baby with you."
Siobhan looked at Vivian with wide eyes, Viv wants to carry the baby?? That was certainly unexpected...

"Viv... I want to carry the baby if that's okay..?" Who was viviam to say no to a request like that? She obviously said yes, and she couldn't be more proud of Siobhan. Both women know that they are going to have to go through some sort of medical procedure in order for Siobhan to get pregnant so they decide to have a look through their options, although Siobhan kept getting distracted because every 2 bleeding minutes, vivians lips were on hers.

After finnally being able to research their options, they decided on IVF. It seemed like the best path for them, a way for Siobhan to carry their baby, with the egg from Vivian ensuring their family would share a deeper connection. The decision brought them both joy but also nerves. They had heard about the challenges, the emotional highs and lows, and yet they were determined.

The first step was finding the right fertility clinic, a process that required endless paperwork and consultations. Every appointment was a blend of medical terminology and personal emotions. Siobhan often found herself squeezing Vivian's hand, feeling overwhelmed by the science and logistics. But Vivian would always be there to support her fiance, and on the plus side, once this is all finally sorted, they can finally start planning the wedding.

Siobhan and vivian decided that they weren't going to tell any of their friends what they was planning on doing, they wanted to leave it all as a suprise and tell them when they know that the time is right.

Vivian had been preparing Siobhan for the day that she would start hormone treatment. It would be in exactly a week today. Siobhan couldn't be more nervous yet so excited even though she knew the next week would drag on for what feels like years.

Eventually, the day came when they began hormone treatments. Siobhans mood was swinging in all different kinds of directions, there would be days where she was happy and days where she would find herself crying for absolutely no reason at all bit vivian was there with her throughout it all.

Eventually, the time came when it was time to start the egg retrieval process. The egg retrieval process was nerve-wracking. Siobhan sat in the clinic’s waiting room, anxiously tapping her foot, while Vivian was in the operating room. When the procedure was over, and they heard the news that several healthy eggs had been collected, they both let out a breath they hadn’t realized they’d been holding

Then came the fertilization stage. They watched together as the doctor explained how the sperm donor they had chosen a kind-eyed man with an artistic background would be used to fertilize Vivian’s eggs. The embryos were created in the lab, and then it was time to wait....

*a week later*

“It’s happening,” Siobhan whispered one night as they lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling. Vivian turned to her and smiled. “Yes, it is.”

The day of the embryo transfer felt monumental. They were both filled with nervous excitement, but there was also a quiet tenderness between them. They arrived at the clinic hand in hand, hearts pounding. As Siobhan lay back on the table, Vivian stood by her side, holding her hand tightly. The doctor talked them through the process, and soon enough, the embryoa tiny speck of potential life was transferred into Siobhan’s womb.
Vivians hand never left siobhans for a minute. Vivian couldn't be more proud of her, she has came so far since she first met Roger, Siobhan had even came to terms with the fact that she was in love woman and now, she's going to be her wife and have her babies.

The following days were the hardest. They had to wait, not knowing if the embryo would implant, not knowing if Siobhan would become pregnant. Each day felt like an eternity. They distracted themselves with movies, walks in the park, and dinners with friends but also being careful not to spill anything to them about the possible pregnancy..

But in quiet moments, the uncertainty loomed.

Now, all the couple had to do was wait a few weeks, and then Siobhan will be able to do the pregnancy test. This is the waiting game.