shivian: a forbidden love 🖤🫶🏻

chapter 6: Charlottes advice

Siobhans pov:

I head back inside to the nursery and am greeted by marjorie. She looks really pissed off. I have absolutely no idea why and no intention of asking.

I sit down at the desk opposite her and run my fingers through my hair.

Out of nowhere, marjorie starts shouting at me, saying that I'm a terrible human being. Woah, where's this coming from??

"Shibby, how could you? You kissed vivian, but you're still with Roger, right??"

I walk out of the office. I don't have the energy to tell her about what's going on in my life. It's none of her business anyway.

Before I even get out of the office, she calls me back in and tells me to sit down.

She apologizes for shouting at Mr she just wasn't expecting me to be the kind of person that would ever kiss a woman.

"Is everything okay between you and Roger? I know we dont have the best working relationship, but if you ever need to talk, I will always be here."

I was not expecting these words to come out of marjorie, and I thank her for being there for me.

I can't help it, but tears start streaming down my face. It doesn't take her any time to notice thatimncryingand and she pulls me onto a hug and promises me that everything will be okay.

She doesn't pull away from the hug until I do. It feels strange having someone being nice to me. I'm used to being abused and used, but this is a feeling I could get used to. I just wish it was Vivan that noticed first.

I pull away from the high and tell marjorie that I need to find Charlotte. She looks at me in confusion, but if she asks later, I guess I could explain it to her.

I walk into the baby room, and she is working with Winter sorscha and carly. She isn't in ratio she's just helping csrly get used to looking after babies.

I asked her if I could talk to her for a little bit about something that's been on my mind recently. It kills me to know that I'm going to tell her about the situation that I have going on with vivian, but I really do need the advice, and she's been where I've been.

She is with mia after being with her husband for many long years. I just hope she can keep this from mia because I can't risk Roger finding out.

We go into the spare office and sit down facing opposite each other.

It's now or never, I need advice and I need it fast.

Charlotte looks at me, worried about whatever I have to say. Our eyes interlock for a split second, and she looks down and starts messing with the necklace that mia brought her.

I'm guessing she's missing her, I'll talk to her about that after she's up to it, but first, I need advice about Viv.

"Charlotte.. there's something that I need to uhm.. talk to you about."

She can sense that I'm neverous and looks at me with a raised eyebrow.

"Well, shibby- on Siobhan, what's wrong??"

I tell her that there's someone who I think I might like. I try not to say anything else, but she looks at me with her eyes wide and her Jaw basically on the floor.

"Are you with Roger?" My heart sank. I am still with Roger, but I've never really been with Roger. I don't want to be with him anymore. I can't do it, but I think vivian deserves that explanation first.

"That's another story for another day, but I do think I like her, the only reason I came to you is because you spent years in a marriage and when you got out of it, you went to mia. How did you know you liked her??"

Her eyes grew wide, shit I said she, she knows it's a girl I like. This is what I wanted her to know, but I don't know how she's going to react to it.

She just sees me as what everyone else does, a homophobic gold digger.

"Well she was on my mind all the time then when I had an argument with marjorie, I went to the bar and she found me and took me back to hers, that was the moment I really fell in love with her."

"Well, I'm glad you have now found your forever person." I say through gritted teeth. Also Slight jealousy in my voice because I'm probably not going to be in a happy relationship for a while because I'm still stuck with Mr persistant.

"Shib, let me ask you a question."

I raise my eyebrows slightly and nod to indicate that she can ask me anything she wants to know.

"Are you happy with Roger." Bold thing to ask. I can't say anything, if he finds out then I am well and truly fucked.

I sit there in awkward silence and don't don't anything at all. She knows this all too well.

She understands and tells me that it's okay and she won't tell anyone.

I thank her for being there for me and letting me ask her this question. She tells me that if I really like this girl then I should trust my gut feeling and try not to care too Much about what anyone thinks about it.

I can't help but worry about what other people have to say though. People wouldn't expect me to run off and date a woman after being with Roger for so many years.

People font know what he has been putting me through, but I am really hoping that someone finds out soon because I can't deal with this for much longer.

We sat in the office for much longer than anticipated, and it was already time to head home. I don't know what kind of mood Roger is going to be in or what to expect from him when I am home.

Either way, I don't think it will be good.

I thank Charlotte again, and I pop in to see Marjorie just before I go. She gives me a nod to let me know that it's okay to go home.

And that's exactly what I do.

Before I head into the car, I give myself a minute to prepare for whatever Roger has in store for me when I walk in..