shivian: a forbidden love 🖤🫶🏻

chapter 12: reunited

A/N part 2 at some point tomorrow 🫶🏻🫶🏻

Vivians pov:

It has officially been 17 days since Roger took Siobhan out of my arms and ragged her out of our home.

I went to his house at least twice a day but every time I went, there was either no answer or the door was locked.

Since the 12th day of her being gone, I just kind of accepted the fact that I probably would never see her again. It killed me on the inside, but there was nothing I could do. If he did run away with her, there was no way I would ever find her.

While no longer having her around, I have gotten my self into some really bad habits such as, not sleeping untill early hours in the morning when I should be waking up, skipping work everyday, drinking 3 bottles of wine per night and not eating.

I am so worried about Siobhan, and I don't know if I am even going to see her again.

Being alone in the house without Siobhan is just awful. The silence is absolutely deathening.

My mum still has Jamie. She's had Jim for ages because while Siobhan was recovering, I was the one looking after her, but I have failed and possibly lost her for the rest of my life.

I don't see Jamie that often because I am either too sleep deprived or I've had too much wine to drink.

Nobody had bothered speaking to me for over a week, and I cut myself off from everyone. I didn't leave the house at all unless it was to look for Siobhan.

She should have my number if she needs to get in touch, but Roger is probably worried about the fact that she might run away again and is being possessive of her.

I hate not knowing where she is or how she is doing. I can't stop feeling like it's my fault. This could have all been easily avoided if only I ignored what she said and went to set him straight.

Another 2 days passed, and I am absolutely hanging out my arse. Last night, I drank so much wine and did back to back shots. At what point is it meant to get easier??

I fell asleep on for about an hour but I got woken up by the phone ringing.

I got up so fast that I went dizzy, but if it's siobhan at the end of the line, that would fix all of my problems.

I miss the way she would sleep on my chest, the way she would let me look after her the way that she treated me.

I miss everything about her.

I answered the phone, and whoever was talking was talking so quietly that I could barely catch what they were saying.

I heard a faint voice trying to get my attention, and then it clicked. It's Siobhan.
I wonder where Roger is? I need to know so that I can go pick her up. She could be in any state, but I am more than prepared to look after her and fix her once again.

"Shib, where are you? I'll come and get you now."

She went silent for a moment, I'm guessing Roger was asleep and starting stir.

"It's not safe for you to come here, I'll come to your house. I'll be there in the next half an hour please make sure the front door is open. I'm going. I'll see you soon."

My baby is finally coming home.

I got the window fixed the day after the accident happened, and I got bulletproof glass so that a situation like this couldn't happen again.

I quickly cleaned up all of the empty wine bottles and shot glasses that were all over the kitchen sides and floors. I wanted to make sure that Siobhan felt safe in this environment.

20 minutes down, 10 minutes left until she gets here.

During the next 10 minutes, I decided that I should get a quick shower and use some of siobhans' favorite sprays.

I haven't really been in the shower much lately, I would wash my hair over the sink every now and again, but that was about it.

When Siobhan was gone, I had no interest in doing anything else, I didn't have the motivation either.

I finally get out of the shower and throw on one of Siobhans jumpers and a pair of her shorts.

It wasn't unusual for me to just sit around in the house wearing her clothes, I do it all the time. I can't help it, I just miss her so much, and I can't wait to finally see her again.

The 10 minutes fly by, and I hear someone come in through the front door.

I run down the stairs as fast as I can and am greeted by the beautiful blonde woman that I am so in love with.

She sees me, and she has the biggest smile in the world. I hold out my arms, waiting for her to run into them and jump up so I can catch her.

That's exactly what she does. She runs up as fast as she possibly can, and I make sure to catch her. I wrap her in my embrace as hard as I can and promise myself that I am never going to let anything happen to her again.

I heard her sigh, but I thought nothing of it. She pulled my face towards her own and attached our lips together.

I have missed this so so so much, and I am so glad that she is finally back in my arms.

The time is half past one In tbe morning so I decided that we should try and get some sleep and we can have a proper re connection tomorrow.

I carry her upstairs into our bedroom, and I give her some pj's that she can change into.

Before Roger took her back, she would change in front of me without a single issue, but this time, she took the pj's and went into the bathroom to get herself changed.

I figured that she probably just needs the toilet and finds it easier to get changed while she's in there, so I thought nothing of it.

She comes out of the bathroom with a smile on her face. It looks forced, but she probably went through a lot while with Roger. I'll ask her about it tomorrow and I will be there for her no matter what.

I climbed into bed and opened my arms so that she could climb into them. That's what she does.

She climbs on top of me and buries her face in my chest. I have really missed this. She wraps her arms around my waist and around my back, and I do the exact same to her, kissing her forehead every now and again.

"Goodnight, sweetheart. I love you." I said out of just pure happiness because I have my amazing girlfriend back.

"Goodnight vee vee, I love you too."

Vee vee? There's so much I need to ask her about tomorrow, but for now, I'm just going to appreciate the beautiful blonde that is my girlfriend back in my arms right where she belongs.