War Upon the Sunrise | HS Side Story

Chapter Twenty-Two

Warning: Rated SPG (Don't smile, this is not good for you)

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I spent two days battling with my mind whether I would want an offspring from Lucas or not. Nikoel's words became an eye-opener to me. It made me realize a lot of things, especially for the part of my child.

However, just like what I told him, I already gave up everything on Lucas. Unbelievable it may sound, but he's the only guy who was able to touch me in many ways possible. So, I don't want any man touching me in any ways.

I have also thought of just trying IUI or Intrauterine Insemination, where the semen is directly injected inside my uterus, but I want to be pregnant in a normal and natural way. And I don't want any other semen aside from Lucas' inside my body.

After two days, my clouded mind became as clear as an image on a candid photograph. I have decided.

I want a child.

This is no longer part of my crazy schemes. This is already something I want to risk.

“Where are you going, Miss Lucy? You seemed very busy?” Nikoel who just entered my bedroom, asked.

I was already prepared to leave. I am already clothed. I wore a plain beige dress reaching my mid-shank. I paired it with white heeled sandals.

I am facing the mirror and I could see Nikoel on the reflection, standing on the door, looking at me.

“I'm going to Trivino. Don't worry, it will be a short trip. I will also come back later, maybe dinnertime,” I said as I combed my hair with my fingers.

“Trivino?” he asked. “There again? Why?”

I smiled and faced him. I am sure he will be very disappointed hearing my answer but at least I responded to his questions.

“I'm gonna try it once more and if there's no offspring, then I won't force it anymore,” I answered him, chin up.

He stared at me for awhile before he blinked twice. Then he sighed and looked away.

I raised my brows at him, still smiling. “What? I know you're very disappointed about my decisions, pero I can manage na myself, Nikoel. And if ever ma-hurt ulit ako, then it's not your fault. Wala kang fault. Everything is my fault.”

“It's not that, Miss Lucy. I knew you were never gonna listen to me anyway. I'm not disappointed, but I am worried about you,” he said.

I could feel the honesty on his voice. Somehow, it made me feel at ease. Because at least, I have someone beside me.

“Don't worry, Nikoel. I won't keep on hurting myself anymore. I'm not gonna be a hypocrite. Ew!” I said and flipped my hair.

“Then I'm coming with you,” he said.

I stopped and looked at him. “Ha? Why are you coming? We're gonna make a baby nga tapos you're gonna make sama?”

He blinked and then shook his head. “No—it's not that, Miss Lucy. I'm just gonna send you there. Then I'm gonna wait on the town.”

I pouted. I think it's much better if he'd wait for me. Because if things don't turn my way, at least I can have someone to call immediately as possible.

I breathed in and then nodded. “Okay! Let's go then! We still have to go back pa naman here during dinner. Let's go!”

I walked past him and went out of the bedroom. I immediately heard his footsteps following me and the clicking of the keys. Somehow, it made me smile. The thought of having someone behind you always, actually feels better.