English Love Affair// Calum T. Hood

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Jess pov:
I woke up and I felt lonely, Calum wasn't there with his protective arms around me.

That's when I remember last night: the arguing, drunk Calum, her, Alex punching him ,running off basically everything.I felt like crying again but didn't, Michael was sat at the end of the bed.And after last night I think I've cried on his shoulder enough for at least a life time.

"You sleep good last night?"Michael asked when he noticed I was awake, he was on his phone already.

"As good as you can when you just got your heart ripped out"i sighed.
"I'm sorry I'm not Calum"he mumbled.

"Mike your better than him at the minute.I can stand to see you without wanting to strangle you and kiss you at the same time.I love him but he messed up.Calum and I just don't work as a couple anymore."

"Maybe your telling yourself that, not me.You need to stop crying over him if your gonna say things like that"

"I know Michael thanks, we both just need some time."
"I get it.You want some food I'm going for breakfast?"
"All you think about is food, but yeh I'll come with you"

Michael chuckled and walked to the kitchen me following behind him.He stopped for a moment and looked around, probably looking for Caitlin and I was right because he asked.
"Where's Caitlin?"

"She got some breakfast then went back to the room"Calum answered him.
"Okay I'm gonna go see her, can I leave you two alone or do you need a baby sitter?"

"We'll be fine"i told him before Calum had a chance.

Once Michael left Calum took my hand and led me to the couch.I pulled my hand away but still sat on the couch with him, even if it was at the opposite end.Its a start, right?

"Did you sleep okay?"
"Did you?"
"No I couldn't"he mumbled looking at the floor and fiddling with his hands like he always has when he's nervous.
"Me two I kept waking up panicking that something had happened to you because you weren't there.Then I remembered what you did."i said taking a deep breath, trying my hardest to hold back the tears that were about to run from my eyes.

"I really am sorry Jess, but I guess I can't change what's happened"

"No you can't but you can let me help you, not right now though we need some space.

Im gonna go home tonight, mums picking me up.I still love you Calum but this isn't going to work"

"Jess you don't have to go, I'll keep out of your way.You need to relax too"

"Calum I don't think either of us can relax after you cheated on me.

But I still don't like to think your sleeping on a couch for one and a half month.So it's best if I go."

"I get it I just want you too be happy, even though that will be hard for us both for a long time."

"Yep, I'm gonna get some breakfast then pack"

"I'll help if you want"

"I'm good but do you want your hoodie back?"

"No keep them you have some of my clothes at your house anyway.What difference is one hoodie gonna do?"

"Okay but I'm give your mum them back"
"You don't get it do you I want you to keep them , they've always looked better on you"
"Fine"i sighed not wanting to cause another argument.

Swiftly I went back to the kitchen then hurriedly packed my bag.Alex had called my mum last night so everything is fine I just need to force myself away from this place.

I love the beach so much.
How the sky can change from candy floss like to darkness is amazing and as much as it may sound cliché and cringe worthy, I love the darkness.

The hours when it's truly dark, maybe between midnight and 3am are perfect.Silence takes over because where you are everyone around you is either relaxing or asleep.No one expects anything of you (not even Calum) and you can be yourself, be alone and when your alone you can think.And that's what Calum and I both need to do a lot of.

That's why I want to be alone, to think about Calum mainly and what we've been through.

I still love him, if it was anyone else who cheated on me in front of my eyes I would have left in a heartbeat.Not Calum though, how could I.Fifteen years he's been my best friend and now that's all changed.

"Jess your mums here"Luke called out and walked into the room with two bags, one in each hand.

"Okay, how come you have those?"
"Mum wanted me to come home early after Alex punched Calum in the face."
"Oh I'm sorry"i cut him of as he was just about to carry on.

"It's okay Jess ,you know how protective my mum is she just didn't want me getting in any arguments with the boys."

"Yeh but why do you have two bags?"
"Cerys has to get back to work next week so she's coming back now.Any way cal deserved that punch ,as much as I love him."

"I know but can we forget about that for now, is my mum driving you two?"

"Yeh mum asked this morning"
"Sounds like Liz ,very organised.We better get going."

"Come on then let's get you home".

{2 weeks later}
Calums PoV:
Two lonely weeks in this beach house in a bed that could comfortably fit two, all on my own.

Most of the time I'm in a group of people: Michael, ash, Alicia, Caitlin and some other people from here but.......but I still feel so lonely and lost without Jess and as much as I don't want to admit it Luke too.

Liz hasn't always been my biggest fan, she's said since we were younger that I'm a bad influence on him.So i guess I understand why she wanted him to leave but he's 19 for heavens sake.

It's times like this I need him, but I know Jess does too so there's no point in protesting.Two weeks is a bit of a long gap to start fighting for Luke ,and Jess for that matter.

I still love her, how could I not.Most of my best memories include her: my first kiss, my first time, leaving school, getting into college.Basically every life hurdel I've over came with her, and it scares me.Scares me that she means so much and I never want to just become strangers with memories.Jess means more than that.

Now though we almost are as close as strangers.

But she's at home now, the house just next door to mine.Where she's lived for the past 15years.Theres not much I can do about it now though, she probably doesn't want to speak to me now. Maybe not ever.

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