English Love Affair// Calum T. Hood

Drunk

Missing you👆🏻A.T.L

Calum and I had been talking to my nan for a while as she had made us supper which she forced us to eat including Danny.

After Danny left Calum and i where eventually alone in my room with the bottle of whisky I told him to sneak up the stairs.

"Finally I can celebrate you being my girlfriend."He gulped down some of the whiskey and handed me the bottle which I poured into a bottle of cola.
"I know Calum my boyfriend."

We had been drinking for about an hour now and the pair of us where slightly drunk.
"Babe"Calum giggled as he took of his shirt.
"Calummm your hot"
"So are you"he bopped my nose and pushed me down on the bed.

"Can I?"he asked fiddling with the hem of my tshirt.
Being drunk and not really sure of myself I nodded kissing him.

"I've missed you so much"
"What do you mean?"
"Your still the only person I've ever ...you know"he was drunk and blushing and rambling; he couldn't be serious!

"Calum no"
"What you are"
"I can't be"
"Why not?"
"Cal me and Danny...we Ermmm kinda."

"Shit no way Jess no fucking way.He touched you, that 'friend' of yours who I trusted."
"Calum calm down"just as his voice started to raise he picked up his shirt and put it over his head.Almost ripping it as he tugged it down.

"I can't Jess I love you I've been so god damn faithful to you."
"We weren't together he just needed some help...me and Danny we never did it!"

"Yeh sure you didn't, I'm gonna go kick the shit out of him."
"Calum can we just talk?"
"No we can't why didn't you just tell me?You waited till now.I love you"

Calum began to cry slightly as he sat down on the floor beside my bed.Carefuly after putting the shirt back on I sat next to Calum.

All i wanted to do was comfort him but he wouldn't let me.He winced or moved my hand away from him.Not being able to help him was horrible, especially because I caused him this pain.
"Calum please LET ME FUCKING EXPLAIN!"I shouted frustrated with myself and him.

"I don't want to talk to you, or anyone for that matter.Call Mali tell her to come pick me up!"
"Calum PLEASE I love you."

Just as I began crying nan walked in the room."what's going on?"
"Your granddaughter a slut."
"I'm your girlfriend"I cried clinging on to his arm trying to stop him from walking out of the room.

"You forgot about me though didn't you.I'll talk tomorrow"
"I could never forget about you!I love you Calum please stay."
"I love you too but ugh I need to think about this."Calum got up and walked out.

Just like that: gone in the blink of an eye!
I didn't want to move just snuggled into my quilt which I'd pulled of my bed.
Nan sat down on the bed glancing down at me.
"What was he talking about?"
"Nothing"
"I can't help you if you don't tell me."
"Nan you don't want to know."
"I do or I wouldn't have asked, that boy just broke your heart."
"No I broke his."
"Jess talk to me, he called you a slut.Im not having anyone talk to my granddaughter like that."

"Nan it was my fault and I don't want to talk about this with you."
"Then I'm calling Alex"

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After another thirty minutes of crying on my own Alex knocked on my door.
"Calum's crying and your crying.Spill!"
"Well me and Danny where pretty close and he was telling me how his girlfriend left because he had never done anything.So I Erm helped him."
"You didn't have sex with him did you?"
"No"
"So whys Calum so upset."
"I didn't tell him before and he wouldn't let me explain."
"We're going to talk to him tomorrow."
"Al"
"Yeh"
"Your the best can you stay tonight?"

"Yeh but where you two drinking?"
"Yeh"I nodded putting my head down.
"Well then let's wait till Calum sobers up a bit."

"I'll sleep on the floor Malis with Calum don't worry about him."
"How can I not?"

"Try sleep okay you and Calum will be fine I promise you."Alex kissed my cheek and picked me up to lay on my bed.

"This is his shirt you know."
"It's okay."

After trying for an hour to fall asleep I couldn't.Laying on my side I looked out of the window and saw the stars.The way they shined so clearly because there was unusually no cloud in the sky, reminded me how Calum and I used to sit on my roof together silently watching the stars.

I wish we could just go home and back to normal.

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When I woke up I felt lonely and lost not safe and loved like I did with Calum.

Alex was still there though his blue hair  spiking up out of the covers.
I dint want to move so just laid there staring at the roof.

"Stop staring at the sealing it's not gonna help."Alex grumbled and I looked down at him.
"Well then just grit your teeth, pull your hair paint the walls black and scream."
"Stop referencing your own songs you weirdo."I laughed climbing out of bed.

"It made me you laugh."
"Calum would more."
"Then we're going to see him!"

Alex looked at me for a moment then looked at my eyes.Tears where threatening to spill and I just couldn't stop them.
My cousin looked like he was gonna cry to as he walked to me and hugged me.

"I hate seeing you cry Jess."he mumbled into my hair.
"I can't see him.Not now he knows Calum hates me Alex; he couldn't even look at me."

Al looked like he was in deep thought for a while before he stood up and stood me up too.

"I have an idea, were in London tomorrow so why don't we go early?Surprise Calum when he gets there."
"Would that be okay?"
"Well he did ask you to go on tour but that hasn't changed!"
"It kinda had Alex I broke his heart."
"But your the only one that can fix it Jess and you know that... God i sound like a priest.Just pack your bags!"