English Love Affair// Calum T. Hood

Train

Song ^^ let her go-passenger please listen while reading xo

// We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren't going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you're feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can't." //

Calum was the one, he new me better than I new myself.He kind of still does, just not this!

I love him.That hurts it hurts like being stabbed in the stomach.Repeatedly for 5 hours.

Thats all I could feel walking along the tracks thinking about us till I went numb.Kicking the odd little pebble around.

Numb to the world because I had nothing left worth living for.
He kissed me before he left and that's his bitter sweet torture.Its the only thing on my mind, our last kiss.Maybe ever!

I sat on the side of the track.
What Calum showed us before, what was different though is this time I was crying.He wasn't beside me his arm around my waist and lightly smoking a cigarette.Those horrible sticks that helped him, but I've found something else that could help me.

Crying because no one was there.Yeh I wanted to be on my own, but no ones noticed and that hurts.I might as well just die, I'm better of up there after all.

Planing really pays of!

Calum's PoV:
The first step in the plane I regretted it.Jess was without me in that state.All I could think is what if she does something she'll regret.

My breathing started to get heavy and it felt like my lungs were going to cave in.
"Cal, Calum are you okay?"Ashton asked and I shook my head.

He looked me dead in the eyes and told me to breath.
"Cal your having a panick attack you need to get out of here."

"Jess...not.. Okay.. G...Alex"I said between breathes as I fumbled out of my seat.

Alex made his way towards us fast, just before the plane was about to take off.
"Whys he having a panick attack?"

"He said something about Jess"Ashton replied and it killed me not being able to explain properly.

"I've just got....a feeling something's wrong...need to find her."Thats all I needed to say and Alex marched over to the flight attendant.

"We need to get of this plane right now.My cousin could die and he's having a fucking panick attack."
"Please calm down sir"
"Get us of this plane now I'll pay anything" Alex said and she got her walkie talkie type thing.

"Could captain please open the doors passenger trauma, please open doors"she said and as soon as they were the slightest bit apart I ran.
Alex following close behind.
I new where she'd be it wasn't far from here so I sprinted all the way to the track.It was miles long so she could be anywhere.

Something caught my eye though, a blue flashing light.I sprinted to it and there was a big circle of ambulances and police cars and big black land rovers.

"JESS IF THATS YOU I LOVE YOU!"I called out trying to push through the mob of people.

"Cal?"I heard a whimper but a police officer pushed me back.
"Son she was a knife you can't go near her, it's not safe."