stray kids Little space

darkness

self harm sorry

little lee know

caregiver changbin

lee know pov

my hands violently shook with every slice, one slice=one bad thought.

punishment.

my mind was over whelmed with thoughts non stop, it was hurting, trying to focus on what was happening.

my hand just kept cutting, not being able to stop

my arms bled

i finally came back to reality seeing my arm bleeding.

my hand shook as i stared down at the blade slipping from my hand.

the blood slowly dripping on the floor turning the white tiles a deep red color.

i shook my head looking back at my arm, tears slipping from my eyes.

"min? babes are you in here?"

my eyes open wide as i heart the oldest member walk in my room

i cleared my throat pushing the large lump down my throat

"y..ye sim here! what's wrong?"

i could hear the footsteps getting closer, i watch as the doorknob moved

"are you okay? why did you lock the door?" i stood up carefully pinching the bottom of my arm.

"i was changing, ill be out in a minute" i closed my eyes as i lied.

"oh well everyone is hanging out in the living room, just wanted to let you know your welcome to join us, we can watch a movie or.. play?"

i looked down at my arm once again.

"y-yeah id like that." i rubbed arm anxiously.

"ok, come down when your ready."

i sighed the moment the footsteps went away.

i quickly cleaned up the blood, patching up the blood quickly not caring to check it.

my first mistake.

***

no one pov

"minmin!"

jisung run up to hug the other who was shyly walking down into living room where everyone was either hudled on the small couch or on the floor

"oh welcome minho" jisung held minhos hand as he whined with pouting lips looking at chan

"whats wrong? why the pouty face?"

minho rather harshly plopped down on the pillows that are all over the floor with a few blankets on them.

"m' minmin..no biggi.." minho looked up locking eyes with chan while jisung got his toys too excited to play.

"hi minmin you wanna play with jiji?"

minho nodded shyly looking at jisung who offered him a small toy he had."

"wan play wif stuffed animal an' car, i gots car too wif doll..." the little went on naming all his toys soon seeming to babble random words out

"play wif animal n' car?" jisung nodded excitedly already playing with a car having it run on the floor and couch like a hill, with his stuffed animals being giant or mountains.

minho on the other hand was acting shy and tense having a fluffy stuffed bunny in his lap running the car over bare leg whining a bit at the weird feeling.

the members soon noticed

"min, are you tired?" seungmin asked kneeling down feeling the boys cheeks and forehead for a fever but he was hot.

the little just shook his head a rubbed his arm.

chan sighed coming on the floor next to seungmin to try and encourage the boy to play more thinking he was just shy.

"how about we race bub? we can set a timer and who ever gets the farthest wins..?" minho gave a small nod and kept rubbing the pain in his arm.

felix enjoying this, got the timer ready counting down for the boys so they could race.

can stayed still going a bit slow while making car noises while minho layed on his stomach wiggling to move around.

jisung soon joined in even though he had no idea what was happening

"gogo minmin beat channie hyung"

minho smiled nodding but the pain in his arm was getting irritating and he sat up starching it, accidently rubbing the bandage off digging his finger into the raw flesh

"hey hey what's wrong?" changbin came on the floor holding the boy still as he whined soon turning into cried.

"daddy..!" everyone turned their attention to the crying little

changbin took the little into his arms rubbing his back but he just sobbed more kicking his feet to get out his arms.

"minmin? why min sad?" jisung held the others hand trying to calm him down but minho just kept crying wanting the pain to stop.

chan noticed how the boy kept grabbing his arm

"min babes come here."

minho didn't answer so he grabbed the boys arm rolling the sleeve up.

everyone froze looking at the badly cared for injuries and the wrap was slowly rolling up in a ball around his arm while getting covered in dried blood.

there was a bit of fresh blood, probably cause from the scratching.

"min.. why?" the little sobbed not knowing

"i-i dont know ! i-it hurts! stop s..stop please h-hurt!"

changbin inhaled a shaking breath picking up the boy carring him to bathroom. leaving behind all the worried boys to deal with a now crying jisung.

changbin didn't say anything while cleaning the boy up.

making sure they were well cared for, taking minho to bed while he still slightly cried.

"honey.. why..why would you do this.. you were doing so well" changbin smiled sadly as he played with his hair.

"d-don't know.. i didn't.. i didn't mean to.. i didn't daddy minmin sorry please. I don't know. !"

minho clinging onto him as he letting out more cries..

"shh its okay your not in trouble everything okay.."

minho nodded putting his finger near his mouth gripping changbin shirt balling it up.

"would you like to listen to musik and take a nap? everything will be better when you wake up?"

minho nodded pointing to the closet.

with a nod he got up getting a white pacifier with a bear print on it as well as a another bunny but its was a little bigger.

minho quickly took the comfort items snuggling into changbins chest while he got his phone out finding calming musik he could ply in the background.

the boy was already half asleep lightly sucking on the pacifier with his arms tightly wrapped around the bunny

changbin kissed his forehead laying the two down so they could be more comfortable.

"everything will be better.." last words that came out his mouth while the light musik gave comforting sound