My Darkest Love

Chapter 36

"Luca?"
Malachi snapped his fingers in front of my face, and it took so much to drag me out of the trance I was in. What the hell is happening to me?

"Wh..what? I .uh..."

"How much did you drink?"

"Not much..I need to go.."

Malachi refused to move from the door and tilted his head in confusion. "I think you need to sit down for a second and breathe."

"Malachi move!"

He looked taken back with the raise of my voice. I finally just shoved him again and this time he moved, and I left the room. I was breathing heavily, and my vision was unfocused as images were slow and blurry. I pushed past more teenagers who stopped and tried to help me, but I ignored them. Finally, I ran upstairs and entered a room hoping it was empty. I shut the door behind me and fell to my knees in tears. The anxiety filling my head as I sobbed loudly. So many thoughts ran through my mind from what just happened and how I was feeling. I love Micah but I also have feelings for Malachi. What do I do?

A knock on the door startled me and I wiped away the tears on my face as I asked who it was. "Yes?"

"Hey! It's Me! You okay?"

"Micah??"

"Yeah."

I sniffled as I opened the door and of course Malachi stumbled in and pulled me into a hug. "Breathe Luca."

I could barely hold back the sobs that once again exited from my body. I gripped the back of his shirt tightly and let him hold me. The strong scent of vanilla and sandalwood filling my lungs like a lustful smoke. My body reacted to it; as it should. "Luca. You okay?"

"Yeah...what happened to me?"

"I think you were having a panic attack. I used to get them alot as a child. That's why I followed you. I wanted to make sure you were okay. Plus you kinda went in my bedroom."

I never thought of my surroundings as I peeked up from his chest and noticed the bed I once laid in and the warmth of the atmosphere.
"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize Luca."

"I need to...I don't know what's happening to me anymore."

"What do you mean?"

"I am having...." I stopped mid sentence. There was no way I could tell him the vivid dreams I'm experiencing. "It's nothing."

He lifted my face with his finger and gazed down at me with those mesmerizing eyes. The ones that you read about in fanfiction. The same eyes that undressed me without a second thought.

"It's not nothing."

"I keep seeing us...I.."

"Seeing us what?"

"Doing things. Every time I come across you, my brain starts hallucinating."

He snickered and kissed my forehead. The spot burning as my face turned a light shade of pink.
"Stop Malachi. We can't do this."

"Stop what? Me giving you what you most desire." 

"No I..I can't do this, I'm with someone."

"Micah, you mean."

I nodded my head as my heart felt like sand was running out of time. "I don't want to cheat on him...more than I already have."

"You going to tell him?"

"No..but if we continue this.."

Malachi let go of me and walked to his drawer and opened the top drawer. "Do you want to be friends then?"

"I mean..I suppose that wouldn't hurt but I can't keep it from Micah."

"That's fine." He smiled and had bag in his hand. He sat down on the mattress and pulled out a small bag of weed. "You smoke?"

"I've never before."

"Come sit and try it. It might help with the anxiety."

"I don't know about this."

"Just come sit and relax."

I had hesitated at first but something inside me urged me to go to him. I took a seat on the bed and sat Criss cross. My hands fumbling in my lap as the uneasiness set it. "Let me get this set up and I'll show you how to smoke out of it."

Malachi set a bong between us and filled the tip with grinded down weed. He packed it in the bowl and lit it with his lighter. He took the tip out and inhaled the white smoke that filled it. He blew it up in the air and gave me a cheesy grin. "See, it's easy."

I grabbed the bong and repeated what he did, only I coughed loudly as it burned the back of my throat and lungs. "Ahh..That..ahem..is strong."

Malachi chuckled and for about fifteen minutes we passed it back and forth. Eventually my brain was covered in a fog that blinded my senses. I had no fear or urge to leave. "This shit is amazing." I flopped back on the bed and giggled. 

Malachi laid beside me, both of us staring deeply at one another. I bit at my lower lip and could feel the heat running across my face. "What?" Malachi asked. I leaned in and blinked slowly as our lips connected. Only it was passion and not full-on lust. Malachi ran his hand through my hair and pulled me in closer. My tongues gliding against each other, I could feel my body burning up. I climbed on top of him and grinded slowly against him. The air felt like it left the room as I gasped when he kissed along my neck. He was leaving dark hickies on my body as his lips explored me. I slipped off my shirt and hoodie, seeing my skinny toned body glisten in the light of the room. Malachi smirked and started messing with my nipples with his fingers and tongue. I couldn't help but moan. 

Malachi took no time to ease himself into a good position as he kissed along my spine down to hips. "So beautiful." 

I blushed and felt my legs turn into slush at his comment. I could barely hold myself up until he held onto my hips and thrusted inside me. My eyes completely opened wide as I grit my teeth.  My hands firmly holding onto the comforter and moaning loudly. "Ahh..Mall..MAlachi!"

I wasn't paying attention until Malachi gasped and helped me up. Micah was standing in the door frame with the most intense anger on his face. I was too high to really understand was happening, but I knew I fucked up. I tried to get dressed quickly but Micah was already leaving the house. I raced after him, my face flushed red. "Micah! Wait!"

I got him to stop just before he reached his car. "What the actual fuck Luca?!"

"I...I'm so sorry..."

"We are done! Don't come near me again."

"Please...I didn't mean too.." 

Micah shook his head and opened the car door, before hopping in. He slammed the door and drove off. I wasn't realizing that everyone saw and was recording what had happened.