My Darkest Love

Chapter 37

I lastly remember falling to my knees in shock. No tears ran down my face as everyone around was laughing at the incident they watched. My heart was racing like a hummingbird on crack. Malachi had appeared behind him, lifting me up in his arms. I didn't have to urge to fight back, instead I buried myself in his chest. The next thing I knew I was sitting in a warm bath, my knees to my chest. My face was all puffy and my hair a mess. "You want me to wash you up?"

I slightly looked to my left and Malachi was sitting on the floor beside me. His eyes filled with sadness. He knew he just fucked up my life entirely. "No.."

"The water will get cold if we don't get you washed up."

"Ok.." I was defeated. Malachi took a rag and washed my body carefully. Soon enough he guided me out of the bathtub and wrapped a towel around me. He wanted to help me into the bedroom but I shoved him aside and walked off to a spare bedroom that wasn't his for once. I sighed heavily as I shut the door behind me. The towel fell to the floor and I stared at the huge room. A king size mattress that had the most comfortable looking sheets on it. Two side tables on either side decorated with plants and a lamp. The room smelled faintly of vanilla, which was pleasant. Some odd paintings were placed along the walls and a full sized body mirror that was next to the dresser. I walked in front of it, staring my body down as if it was unknown to me.

*Knock knock*
"Luca?"

"Please go away."

"I have some clothes for you. I'll set them outside the door. I'll be in the kitchen making dinner after I get the house all cleaned up."

I waited till I couldn't hear the sound of his footsteps and sighed a breath of relief. "What is actually wrong with me?.."

I opened the door and grabbed the clothes and my phone that was placed in the center. I got dressed in a long oversized sweater and blue shorts. The sweater smelled like Malachi which only made me angrier at myself. Unfortunately I was stuck with it while my clothes were being cleaned. Apparently I threw up all over myself after Malachi dragged me inside. My phone lit up a few times as I stared at it. I was terrified to know what was happening once I opened social media.  I double tapped the screen and put in the pass code. One message from Micah was highlighted. I opened it and immediately felt a tightness in my chest.

12:35 A.M.
"As of now, I have packed all your belongings and set them aside. You need to return my key and pick your items up. After this, please lose my number."

I had no idea how to respond to what he said. I fucked up the one good relationship I had for a boy who played with my heart. "Why do I keep coming back to you?!" I shouted and threw my phone across the room. I hated myself for what I did. I quickly gathered my thoughts and my phone which was not cracked down the middle. I tossed it in my pocket and left the room. The house was silent for the most part. There were a few girls upstairs giggling. I tried my best to sneak out but Malachi turned the corner and trapped me. "What's up?"

"I need to leave."

"And go where?"

"To get my stuff and my car."
Malachi sighed. "Let me take you where you need to go at least. I feel awful."

"Fine." I waited at the side door and eventually Malachi came and had keys in his hand. "Where you going after this?"

"I don't know... probably the park."

"Just stay here? I'll leave you be and give you space."

"I can't do that. I already fucked up one living situation and don't feel like imposing on someone else."

Malachi got in the car before me, slamming the door. It startled me a bit but I got in after him. The car ride was awkward and intense. The feeling in the air was so suffocating. I rolled the window down to get air and watched the streetlights beam by. I typed In Micah's address in the GPS for Malachi.

Upon arriving, I felt the same tightness in my chest but this time also in my stomach. I got out of the car and made my way to the door. Clutching onto the key that Micah made for me. I knocked on the door. It was silent for a few until the door slightly opened. "Hey.."

"Your stuff is right here."

"Can we talk please?.."

Micah opened the door and motioned for me to step inside. I walked past him and felt my body shake in nervousness. "Talk."

"I didn't mean to do that...I was high and I guess old feelings were there and I messed up. You don't have to forgive me but please don't leave me..."

"You cheated on me. That's low of a person and I don't deserve that. Now please leave."

"I love you Malachi..."

I stopped and covered my mouth immediately. Both of us in awe. I can't believe I said that.

"Leave now!"

I quickly grabbed my stuff and threw it in my car. I had attempted three times to start my vehicle and both Malachi and Micah watched me. Tears rolling down my face as I slammed my fist against the steering wheel. The car started and I backed out quickly before driving off.

Seconds became a blur when all I hear was sirens.