Illicit Love

Kabanata 23

"Puro ka simangot, kaya takot lahat ng empleyado mo saiyo eh"

Inirapan ko lang ito, nandito na kami sa isang sikat na outdoor resto dito sa New York. Pangisi ngisi lang sa tabi ni Wanda si Helena habang nakayakap ito dito.

"Tigilan mo ako" masungit na puna ko.

Nagfocus nalang ako sa pagkain ng steak na order ko, I miss eating outside. Well sa sobrang busy ko hindi ko na magawang lumabas at i-treat ang sarili ko ni minsan.

"You know what, you should find your self a partner! Para naman mabawas bawasan iyang kasungitan mo, kulang ka lang sa lambing eh! Right hon?" humarap pa ito sa gf niya para humingi ng approval.

"Right, mybe she's just missing someone that's why she's grumpy as always" hirit ng gf nitong nakangisi saakin tila nang aasar.

"Wait don't tell me you have boyfriend? Bakit hindi ko alam!" exaggerated na sigaw nito habang nakasapo sa kaniyang dibdib.

For the ninth time I rolled my eyes at them, I'm such a busy person for that matter. Mas maraming bagay ang dapat kong pagtuonan ng pansin kaysa sa mga ganiyang bagay.

"You're trying to see things again, get some glasses will you?" I said in a casual tone.

"Edi wow, ang akin lang napag iiwanan ka ng panahon. Uso lumandi? Hindi ka ba napapagod magsungit ng magsungit? Tatanda kang dalaga niyan"

I sighed to end the topic, here we go again.

"Babe, let her be. Take it easy, we don't need to push her. Mybe she's still not ready for that stage on her life" Helena's being a understanding friend.

That side of Helena I really like, she can understand everything. Siya palagi ang umaawat saamin ni Wanda lalo na pag nagkakasalungat na kami ng mga sinasabi, she's always there to stop us.

"Tsk, pagsabihan mo iyang kaibigan mo" umirap pa ito saakin.

Tignan mo iyan, akala mo inapi na ng mundo. Naiiling na natawa nalang ako, nagkatinginan kami ni Helena. She just smiled at me so I am, she knows something about my past. And I'm thankful that she's keeping it between us, wala naman na akong balak na ungkatin pa iyon.

Matagal na panahon ko ng ibinaon sa hukay lahat ng alalaang iyon, I moved on from that puppy love of mine. Oo aaminin kong minsan ay naiisip ko parin siya pero hindi na tulad ng dating napapangiti ako o kikiligin nalang bigla sa tuwing maiisip siya, ngunit ngayon ay kakaibang sakit na ang dulot ng mga ala-alang pilit ko ng binabaon sa limot.

I moved on from her, but not from the pain she cost me. Those wounds are still healing but the scars are stayed there that's why I'm still feeling the pain when those memories trying to go back.

"Any way, hindi ka talaga sasama samin pabalik ng pilipinas?" direktang tanong ni Wanda saakin.

She caught my attention, I was just silent in the moment, thinking. I shrugged my shoulders.

"Nanay called me earlier, they want me to go home. So mybe it's time to take a break?"

Because of that both of them leave in shocked, as their eyes grew wider. Who wouldn't right? This is my first time going home after 6 years, kahit ako hindi ko alam ang dapat na maramdaman e.

"Omg? Real na ba iyan? Sasabay ka ba saamin umuwi, we're going home before all saint's day!"

Halata sa mukha nito ang excitement at say, kahit ang gf nitong tahimik lang sa tabi niya ay pangisi ngisi lang at hindi ko mabasa ang nasa kaniyang isip.

I shook my head, "I have a lot things to do, I need to finish it first before finally took a leave"

Dissapointment appreared on her face but then she smiled again.