TBATE - What if Tessia was the legacy ? - The legacy of it all

My legacy III & True feelings II

{Tessia Eralith}

Sitting on the ground in front of the Xyrus academy main gate, under the heavy rain, I stayed crouched-up, my legs pressed against my torso, my arms hugging my leg and head buried between my chest and knees.

I felt so stupid, I felt so ashamed of myself.

Lying about my identity to all the members of Unity had always felt wrong considering how much trust they put in me and how close I had gotten to some of them, but I couldn't tell them the truth, it would make the organization implode in on itself and ruin everything. Telling them who I am would contradict the whole point of the organization.

Unity stood for the weak who had nowhere to go, nothing to look up to, who were stuck in a life they had no control over, not for people like me who already have everything they want.

I always felt conflict about this situation, feeling like an imposter amongst all of them.

I had convinced myself that it was for the best, that I had to put aside a bit of my moral for the greater good. I always thought that I would just disappear from the organization one day in secret and let them continue without me, which they were already doing.

My stay at the Xyrus Academy had only made it clearer. Despite spending less and less time taking care of the organization, nothing had happened, Unity had continued just fine without me, while I could finally enjoy my time with Arthur and Hanna here.

Beyond telling them about the Alacryan threat and handing them the knowledge Arthur passed on to me, it had been months since I actually gave any order or precise directive. I simply had nothing more I could bring to them, which only made me feel worst about being their leader.

Maybe it was time for me to step down. Maybe I was never a good fit as a leader in the first place.

At the end of the day, I'm just a stubborn, stupid girl with an obsessive one-way love and constant anxiety about everything I did or said.

-Gosh I hate myself." I said aloud as my voice was drowned out by the rain that was still falling on me and hopefully completely blocked by an anti-sound barrier, I had raised around myself just in case, as I wondered if, and when, I would be able to live in that prosperous future I had promised to everyone else.

Staying still, I let time pass by as I stayed isolated with my thoughts, until feeling something pull on my shirt.

Raising my head ever so slightly, I peaked at my left and spotted Sylvie grabbing on my shirt while giving me a sad yet comforting expression.

-Kyu." She said as I understood that she didn't want me to feel sad.

Slowly extending my legs, I let the baby dragon climb on top of my thighs and gently rub her head against my stomach as I cautiously wrapped my arms around her in a hug.

-Thanks for being here, Sylv." I said with a faint smile while on the verge of tears, ignoring the questions of how she knew I was here and feeling down. Simply letting myself sink in the comfort she was providing me with.

-Kyu!" She energetically answered as I raised my head a bit further up and spotted two figures walking toward me.

I easily deduced that the first one was Arthur, but struggled to see who could be accompanying him, or to be more precise, didn't want to believe what I was seeing, as my eyes landed on and stayed glued to her face until she stopped only a few meters away from me.

Shivering as I felt a jolt of shame traverse my body, I looked away from Hanna, unable to keep eye contact after what had happened.

She probably hated me for lying to her for so long. She probably didn't want to see me ever again.