TBATE - What if Tessia was the legacy ? - The legacy of it all

His Legacy I & True feelings III

{Arthur Leywin}

-Tess." I called out her name in a clam yet determined tone and waited for her to acknowledge my words, "I have something to tell you." I added, trying to stay calm and firm, but feeling my hand shacking a little. Taking a long breath in, I closed my eyes, thinking about if this really was a good idea, before finally saying what I wanted to tell her for years now, but never found the strength or time to : "I don't come from this world." I said as I re-opened my eyes.

Waiting half a second for some kind of immediate reaction from her end, I only felt her fingers wrap around mine a bit tighter.

-I come from a land similar and yet very much different from Dicathen. A land mostly composed of large empty cold plains and frozen forest stretching over the horizon, where the climate is often so cold that the ground is perpetually frozen and often snow never melts." I explained as my mind flashed back to my time as King Grey and my many trips all across the kingdom of Etharia. For me who had only lived in the big cities, seeing just how empty and barren the countryside really was, marked me far more than the giant, ominous gray towers of the capital city.

"A land where almost 84% of the population lives in the 15% most southern part of the country in gargantuan cities spreading like a tumor further than the eye can see. Cities where all the buildings are nondescript blocks of gray concrete, a dozen-floor tall and where the governments and rich elite live in all white towers towering hundreds of floors above the rest of the cities, covering the sky and shinning brighter than the moon and stars in the night." I added, unsure if she would grasp just how claustrophobic and overwhelming the architecture was. "Imagine the Elshire Forest, with twice, not thrice as many trees, all 7 times tall and turned into towers where tens of thousands of people live and work." I explained, thinking that this would be a better example, reflexively turning toward her to have her reaction, only to see her looking at me with a fascinated expression as she looked almost frozen in place, her eyes almost begging me to keep talking.

Turning back around, blushing slightly at just how interested in me, she seemed to be, I pressed on with my explanation, having no reason to hold back, finding it relieving to finally have someone I could freely talk to about this. To finally be able to get all the thoughts that had been trapped in my heads since I reincarnated out and which I had been repressing for so long.

-I never met my parents, nor did I feel the need to." I explained, never having given the subject much attention to it in my past life and only found myself reflecting back on it now that I have a family. "In some ways I regret not meeting them, or looking into who they were, I might have been able to learn more about who I was." I added, speaking out my thoughts as they came. "But on the flip side, keeping the mystery intact instead of half open left room for imagination, and from what I heard of the other kids in the orphanage, the truth would have probably been extremely disappointing anyway." I add trying to stay positive as I remembered just how awful the familial situation of much of the children's there was. Between those abandoned in the streets, those left in the hospital after their birth, those whose parent died or abused them, and the ones who were so traumatized that mentioning the subject would have them break down in tears, I truly felt like ignorance was bliss in that matter.

"On the subject of the orphanage, that's where I met Nico and Cecilia, my two best, and for a long time, only friend. He was the brain, I was the arm, and she was the one keeping us from going rogue by ourselves, we were a good team." I said, nodding at my own words, even if I had far outgrown that stereotype, as I seemingly found myself as the arms, the brain and the babysitter of any team I ended up in. "We were both the troublemakers, always trying to play tricks and find loopholes in the rules, and yet weirdly loyal and helpful to headmaster Wilbeck. Thinking black on it now, I found that my desire for autonomy and freedom rather contradictory with my quest to get her approval and recognition, but I guess that kids aren't the most consistent people." I conceded, more so thinking out loud than really talking to Tess.