Supernatural Imagines: Book Two

Calm Before The Storm (j.a)

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Female!Reader

Warnings: angst, trichotillomania, hurting yourself, fluff at the end

Summary: Trichotillomania affects about ten million Americans which ranges from not that bad to severe. You're not sure where you fall on that spectrum, but it's safe to say that you've got it bad. You try not to trigger your disorder but sometimes you can't help it. The one person you can always count on is Jensen. He makes the urges go away even for only a moment.

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Something like a convention isn't normally your scene. You'd never go to one of these alone much less with someone else. The only reason why you're going to this one is because your best friend is asking you to. You'd do anything for Jensen even if it means going to a place that will definitely trigger your anxiety.

Before you were diagnosed, you didn't understand why you were pulling your hair out of your head whether that be from your head or face. It's an urge that you can't control. It was only when you got to high school that you were diagnosed with trichotillomania, a hair-pulling disorder. Your eyelashes were the target of your disorder until you turned to your eyebrows before settling on your hair. You have balding spots that you cover with bangs but it still doesn't make up for the fact that they're there.

Still, you're going to this convention for Jensen and only Jensen.

The car pulls up to the service entrance not available to the public. You, Jared, and Jensen leave the car and head inside the place. The room is empty as they get everything set up, but you can hear the commotion outside as fans chat and enjoy the different events going on. You won't be going on stage with the boys but you will be around when they take pictures with their fans.

It's okay if they come up to you and ask for pictures. You have to tell yourself that because you've been shown on Jensen's social media so often you get recognized on the street by the biggest fans of Supernatural. As they are getting set up, you walk to the huge window and look out at the streets below. There are still people coming in for the events that have a late start, and you admire the different costumes you see. Anime adaptations, superhero remakes, and more.

It's times like these that make you wish you didn't have your disorder. You'd love to enjoy places like these but you get claustrophobic easily so large crowds are a huge no for you.

"Hey, are you going to be okay?" Jensen asks when he walks up from behind you.

"Yeah, I have my snacks and my fidget spinner. I'll be okay," you smile.

Jensen pulls you in for a hug and kisses you on your head. He always shows affection like this toward you even though you wish he'd do it more often.

"Thank you for coming. I know it's not easy for you."

You pull away and look into his eyes.

"Anything for you."

He leaves your side before you can say anything more. The crush you have on him grows by the second. There is no way you're going to tell him how you feel for two reasons. One, you don't believe he feels the same way about you. He is pretty outspoken with his feelings and he would have done it by now if he felt the same. Two, you don't want to lose him as a friend. He's one of the best things to ever happen to you, and you'd rather have him as a friend than not have him at all.

You leave the window and head backstage to one of the beak rooms right before the panel starts. The best thing about doing these conventions is connecting with their fans and giving back to them. There wouldn't be Supernatural without the fans, and Jensen and Jared wouldn't be where they are today without them.