You're mine

Chapter 5: Goodbye

Leah's POV

I was so tired of Cam's behavior, I really was. So after I talked to her, I just went home. I was by myself until she arrived too. Even though I wanted to kick her out, I didn't. She's still my girlfriend and I don't want to be by myself.

So we spend the whole evening not talking to each other. Cam sometimes tried to reach for me, but I'd just back away, I was tired of her acting all jealous.

At night, she wanted to cuddle with me, but I wouldn't let her. She has to calm down first, before she could hold me again.

And during the morning before school, we again didn't said a single word to each other. On our way to school, I had hoped for a better time with Cam after school. I had hoped she'd let go of the jealousy and just enjoy our relationship again, like she always used to.

But when I saw her taking my hand again while glaring at other girls, I lost it and ran away from her. I was tired of her behavior.

I hadn't seen her for the rest of the day. Although I hadn't even looked for her either.

During last period, Math, Miss Jacobs noticed something was bothering me. She asked me to stay behind and so I did.

Once everyone was gone, she looked at me. "So, what's wrong?"

I sighed and looked down, I was on the verge of crying. "Cam's still being jealous, yesterday she confirmed that."

"Maybe that's not something to bad. It just means she cares."

I sniffled. "I...I..."

"You what?" and by know she was standing in front of me, looking at me.

I looked her in the eyes. "I don't know if I can take it much longer."

"Of course you can, it's just jealousy."

"That's not all."

She looked at me, probably wondering what I was saying. "Alright, you lost me."

I looked down again. "I don't know if I still love her in that way..." I said soft.

She nodded and went to sit down on her desk. "The jealousy doesn't bother you that much, does it?"

I shook my head no.

"It's just an excuse to hide how you really feel." she said to which I nodded, crying.

"I don't know what to do, I've been with her for so long."

"I thought you said only two years..."

"Yeah, but I've been with her my whole life. She's so important to me, I can't lose her." I said, sniffling.

She stood up and made me look at her. "Leah, you can't stay with someone because you don't want to be alone."

"I know." I said soft, my voice breaking because I was crying.

"Then do something about it. Do the right thing." she said to which I nodded, still looking down. "Just like you told me."

I looked up and saw her smiling. I smiled too and took my stuff, finally I knew what I needed to do. "Thanks Miss."

"You're welcome, Leah." she said and watched me walking away.

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This time we went to Cam's house instead of mine. Normally I'd stay over at her house, but not today.

We walked to her room and that's when she hugged me, kissing me below my ear. "Finally we're alone." she whispered seductively.

"Cam, I need to talk to you."

"Mhm." she kissed along my neck.

"Cam," I said and pushed her of me. "I really need to talk to you."

"Sure, babe. About what?" she asked, sitting down on her bed.

I decided to keep standing here, I didn't want to hurt her more than I already was going to. "Cam, I uhm..." I started but quickly enough stopped since I felt tears.

"Babe, you alright?" she asked, getting up to caress my cheeks.

"Yeah, I just need to tell you something."

"Sure." she said and watched me closely.

"I uhm..." I started but had no idea how to actually say it. How was I supposed to say that, I didn't want to lose her, my best friend. She's like a sister to me, and I don't want to lose her. The words of Miss Jacobs came back into my mind, and I remembered why I had to do this.

"Babe?"

"Cam, I love you."

"I love you too, babe." she said, wanting to kiss me but I stopped her.

"Let me finish." I said to which she nodded. "I love you and I'll always love you. You'll always be my first everything. And I'm glad it's you, my best friend, my sister..." I said and started to cry. Cam obviously noticed something wasn't right.

"Babe, you're scaring me."

"And because of that, it's hard to do this. To say the words I actually thought I'd never say to you." I said, crying even more. "Cam, I love you but I can't be with you anymore."

Cam gasped. "W-what? No, babe, I can change."

"That's the point, I don't want you to change." I said and sniffled.

"Then what can I do to keep you?" she asked, she started to cry to.

I cried more and shook my head. "N-nothing."

"No! There must be something I can do!" she said and by now was holding both my hands. "Please babe."

"I'm sorry, Cam." I said and stepped back. She was crying a lot so I decided to just leave her and went to my house instead, where I'd be alone