New character, Dakota in the media
"Your daddy loves you and I love you too. Sorry we couldn't work it out for you. But we gone do what's best for you." - K. Michelle
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My heart is beating fast as fuck and I'm trying to calm down because I'm close to having a panic attack. My son has been missing for almost seven hours. It's almost one in the morning and nobody knows where Noble is. Jessica called me crying about an hour after I left telling me how he said he was going to the bathroom but when he never came out she went and looked and he wasn't anywhere in the house. She went looking with the kids and Montana for an hour but they couldn't find him anywhere. I called around and nobody knew shit. When I called Darius, he was crying talking about how Noble called talking about he was about to kill himself and he said he thought he heard a gunshot.
I'm so scared. I was so mad earlier, I snapped but I didn't mean that shit. If anything, I wish my sons loved me but they don't care. I don't reget them at all. I didn't mean it. I cursed myself out and cried the whole ride to a hotel after I left the house. I wanted to run back in there and apologize for that but I knew they were too hurt to even hear what I had to say at the moment.
This isn't the first time Noble tried to kill himself. The first time was when he was nine. He took the lighter Jessica used to light candles with back then and locked himself in his closet while everybody was sleep. He locked his door and his window then he set the closet on fire while he was in there. He was in the hospital for a month because he inhaled too much smoke and couldn't really breathe on his own. He still to this day got an ugly burn mark on his shoulder, which I was planning on letting him cover with a tattoo this year because it bothers him. He barely even lived. The doctors thought he was gonna die too.
The next time, he tried to jump off the top Vonte's house but ended up tripping and busting his ass on the ground instead. He just ended up with a broken leg and finger. I pray to God this was all a misunderstanding and he didn't really hurt himself.
Noble took after me a lot, but probably worse. He has a depression issue that's serious because he tries to hurt himself at the most random times. I feel so bad for doing Jessica like I did. I know it hurt Noble more than anybody because of how he is. He has a dependent personality disorder, which is why he clings so close to Jessica. He really can't function without her being with him in some type of way. At school, he is allowed to text her all day and call during every class period. He can't help it, he'll throw a fit and try to kill somebody if he can't talk to her.
"Jessica, I'm sorry." I say, hugging her as she cries. "Why couldn't he just talk to me? All I want is my baby!" she screams and cries in my chest. "He was laying on me crying. He said he didn't wanna leave me but he was tired and had to use the bathroom. I didn't think this is what he meant when he said he didn't want to leave me. What if he's somewhere dead? It's your fault!" Jessica screams, punching on me.
"I know, I know. We gone find him, Jessica." I mumble, trying not to break down and cry as a couple of tears roll down my face. My niggas, Montana's niggas, some of my cousins, and a few of the kids' friends are some of everywhere looking for him with us.
Majesty walks over to us holding his flash light. "I feel like I'm dying. Like, I know something ain't right with my brother. I can't lose my twin, ma, that's my other half. I can't." Majesty breaks down crying, shaking his head. He walks over to us then lays his head on me. "Daddy, I'm sorry for being disrespectful. Ain't it my fault? He never would've did this if he wasn't trying to defend me when I disrespected you in the first place." he breaks down crying. I hug him. "Majesty, I promise to god I forgive you and I didn't mean a word that came out my mouth. This shit ain't your fault. If it's anybody's, it's mine. Majesty, I swear." I say, blinking out tears as I hold him and Jessica in my arms.
