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"I'm hard body, heavy thinker, Imma handle mine." - Lil Herb
MONTANA
My brothers are standing here shaking their heads at me as I swallow the pills the nurse came and gave me. "Fuck yall looking at?" I ask, irritated by this whole situation. "Why your mood change so quickly?" Darius asks, looking at me funny. All I can think about is Jessica. I swallow hard then take a deep breath. "I know she gone fuck him... but she gone be making love to him, not just fucking him... I just know it's gone happen." I say, shaking my head, trying my hardest to not imagine that. I feel sick thinking about it. "I really think the doctor was right when we was little." Montello says. "Right about what?" I ask. "Remember you went to the doctor cause grandma didn't like you and cause all the kids and teachers was scared of you? Remember how them folks used to run from you and they said you didn't feel emotions for shit and how you a psychopath then you messed the doctor office up cause they called you crazy? I think they was right." Montello says.
"I think I was in foster care when that happened because I don't remember it. I would've helped him tear the doctor's office up to be honest, that shit was rude." Darius says, making me laugh a little. "Every time I look at you I imagine you as my lil baby brother. It's hard to adjust to yo ass being a grown man." I admit, laughing as I look at his tattoos and facial hairs. When he got taken out of my life, he was pretty much a baby, then we linked back up when he turned twelve. I think I'll always view him as my little brother I watched over.
"Hell yeah. This nigga twenty nine now. It don't feel real." Montello says, laughing as we look at Darius. Darius starts laughing a little. "Damn, life is crazy. Time speeding up so quick. Next thing I know, Tae gone be yo age and imma be old as fuck." I say, dying laughing, trying to imagine myself as an old man with gray hairs getting on Dream and Tae's nerves. "Naw, next thing you know, Dream gone be grown with some kids. Now, that's gone be a trip." Darius says. I shake my head. "You know how I did some fucked up shit with Jessica in the past or how much Ant be putting her through? I ain't ready for Dream to grow up because I'm scared." I admit. "Scared for what?" Montello asks. "I'm scared she'll get a nigga like me or like Ant. I don't know, mane, I don't want her to be attracted to thugs but I mean... look at Reign, she won't talk to no niggas who don't remind her of me and her father. I don't want that shit for Dream. I need her with a lawyer or somethin'. Too much heartache come with this street shit. I just don't wanna see my baby hurt." I admit, shaking my head. That's one of the only few things I'm afraid of in this life.
"She not gone end up fucked up as long as you, as her father treat her like a princess and show her how she's supposed to be loved by a man. I learned something about that growing up with Jessica and Ant. Jessica never had her father in her life until she got grown, and even now they're relationship isn't solid. She had her foster dad who raped her and her foster mother. All they used to do is beat on her, spit on her, and tell her how she wasn't shit until that became normal to her. I guess that's why I have so much patience with her and understand the things she does more than yall do. I was there and I watched how bad the men who were supposed to love her broke her down. It's so much crap that went on in that house that me, her, and Ant are taking to the grave, honestly. And all these things fucked up. I know her and I know when she's trying but that stuff scarred her for life. When she met Ant, she was already fucked up and didn't know how love felt. Nobody thinks of it this way but if the people raising her would break her down with their hands and their words then claim they loved her, she was used to that. So, it was normal when Ant came along and said he loved her. Abuse and insults was the only love she ever knew. I know I'm talking a lot but I'm trying hard to word this right." Darius says, trying to explain himself.
