"If you thought that I was perfect, boy you were wrong. I'm far from that. There's one thing that I've done to you that I regret." - Keri Hilson
JESSICA
"Jessica, let me talk to you right quick." Montana says. I get up and follow him out the room. "Yeah?" I ask. He smiles at me. "Gimme a hug." he says. "Why? You trying to murder me?" I ask. He smiles. "Maybe." he jokes. "You scaring me, Hannah." I say, earning a crazy look from him.
"You did not just call me that." he says. I laugh then grab his arm. "I'm sorry, Montana, I couldn't resist it." I say. He laughs. "It's all good. For real, give me my hug. I'm finna head out. I'm tired and I'm supposed to be taking Tae to get his hair cut." he says. I nod my head then pull him in a hug. He kisses my cheek. "Montana... please, don't feel played. I'm just doing what I think is right for my kids." I say. "Jessica, a nigga like me can't be played by nobody, period. If I didn't wanna be more than just your baby daddy, I wouldn't. I knew it was just sex when we fucked. Plus, I ain't dumb. I'd know if somebody was playing me." he says.
"I know... I just feel bad." I say. "Don't. I promise to god you couldn't play me if you wanted to." he says, grinning. "People look at me as a grimy female and a hoe. Sometimes, I feel like a hoe, to be honest. Like... I'm in love with Ant. Well, I think I am. And then there's you... and like, damnit." I say, shaking my head. "Bottom line is, you should just move on, forget your feelings for me, and find somebody better. I ain't shit, Montana. Seriously, you're an amazing man. Why would somebody like you even love me? Just forget me, find somebody who loves you and will treat our son right. It's what's best." I say. He smiles. "Jessica, I don't give a shit about what nobody say. Plus, I'm not the love type, you feel me? I don't wanna fuck with another woman. Why would I even get somebody knowing I'm not about to give her all of me? I ain't about to go fuck with nobody's heart cause I ain't letting you go." he says.
I nod my head. "I know but you deserve better. You don't deserve to be lonely." I say. He starts laughing. "Lonely? Jessica, I'm a man, I have needs. I have sex with women, protected of course. It's never emotional, just a good ass nut. I got our son with me every time he wanna see me, and you blow my phone up. Baby girl, I ain't lonely." he says.
"Montana... just move on." I say. "I gave you up for a reason. Believe me, I'm fine, Jessica." he says. I shake my head. "Montana, I'm a fucking hoe. Look at me. I was fucking with you and Ant at the same time, I fucked with Ant's blood brother back then, my ass got five kids by him and one by you, plus I'm fucking pregnant again, I don't know why you care. Why do you care about me? Why? I ain't shit, Montana!" I go off.
"Jessica, shut that stupid shit up. Why do you take what folks say to heart? I wouldn't be in love with you if I felt like that towards you. Ant is your damn husband. If you wanted to have a million of his kids, that's yo fucking husband. Who cares about what these damn people say? And so what? We have a child. We made him out of love." he says. "I don't ever wanna hear you say that stupid shit no more. I'm tired of you talking down on yourself, Jessica, I love you! I see your flaws, damn. I told you from day one I'll always be here for you. Believe me, I didn't lie." he adds, pointing his finger in my face.
I stare at him. He wipes my eyes with his thumb. "For real." he says, staring in my eyes. I look down. He steps back. "Hold on... you said you pregnant?" he asks. "Huh?" I ask. I did not mean to let that slip.
"You heard me. Did you say you pregnant, Jessica? Don't lie to me." he says, looking in my eyes. I can't even read the look on his face. I slowly nod my head yes. "I didn't want anybody to know yet." I mumble. He rubs my stomach then smiles a little. "How far along?" he asks. "I don't know. I took a test in Mexico. That's what I was hiding." I answer. "It's mine?" he asks. "I don't know." I mumble.
