"But when it hurts, I can make it better. Girl if it works, it's gone be forever. We been through the worst, made it through the weather. Our problems and the pain, but love don't change." - Jeremih
ANT
I smile wide as Jessica walks in the house. I got the chicken in there frying and everything. I didn't even know she was coming home tonight. I took LaLa to gymnastics after I calmed down earlier.
"Jessica." I say, pulling her in a hug. She hugs me back then pulls away. "You aight? You look depressed." I say, frowning a little. She smiles. "I'm fine. I promise." she says. I take a deep breath. In anger management, I've been learning how to be more patient. "I know something ain't right. Talk to me." I calmly say.
She smiles. "I think we should get the DNA test. Right now... let's do it." she says, making my eyes widen. We all question who Reign's dad is but I don't wanna know. I'm almost positive she is mine but if she ain't, I'll lose it. I'd rather leave that situation alone.
"For what?" I ask. "Cause... everybody wanna know so yeah. Go get her. We about to do it." she says. I swallow hard. "And I'm gonna pay extra to get the results tonight as well. Come on. I wanna get this over with once and for all." she says. I nod my head. "Let me finish cooking dinner first." I say. She starts to walk away then stops. "You know what, I got it. You been working hard and stuff, I'll finish it." she says. I shake my head no. "Naw, I can do it. Go get ready." I say, then walk back into the kitchen. I owe this to her, she need a break. The least I can do is cook dinner.
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I finished cooking and fed the kids. Now we on our way to the hospital. The only kids we brought with us are Reign and Amari. Jessica and Reign haven't said a word to each other. "I ought to reach back there and slap the fuck outta you." Jessica randomly says, laughing at nothing. I glance over at her. "Make sure you slap yourself for being a hoe after you slap me." Reign says.
Jessica unbuckles her seat belt then starts beating the shit out of Reign. My eyes widen as Jessica cusses and screams throwing punches at her. She gone fuck around and kill her.
I pull over then get out. I walk to her door. "Jessica, chill." I demand, holding her. "I'm sick of this shit! I don't give a fuck if I was throwing pussy at every nigga I see, bitch, I'm still your momma!" Jessica yells at her. I haven't ever seen Jessica this hurt before. "I'm not no bitch! I'm your daughter! How you gone beat me up and call me a bitch?" Reign screams.
"You know what, Reign, I don't give a fuck! Don't try to play the victim! I'll be damned if I sit here and keep taking this shit from you! Whoever yo daddy is is the only parent you got cause I'm done! I ain't finna kiss your ass to make you happy! I do all I can do for you, I break my fucking back for you! I just had to give birth to a dead ass baby, I'm stressed the fuck out, but I still managed to be there for you! You got me fucked up!" Jessica yells at the top of her lungs, pointing her finger in Reign's face. "I didn't know you had a miscarriage." Reign mumbles.
"Don't start crying. Fuck that." Jessica says, climbing back to her seat. "Momma, I'm sorry. I'm just tired of people questioning me. Who is my dad? That's all I wanna know." she says. "I don't fucking know, Reign! Now you know! I don't know who he is!" Jessica snaps.
I raise my eyebrow, staring at her. I glance back at Amari as he sleeps. I'm so glad he didn't wake up. "For real? What you mean you don't know, Jessica?" I ask. "I don't give a fuck about shit no more. I'm tired of lying to myself trying to convince myself that you the daddy. Well, Ant, my hoe ass don't know who it is. Shit, I really don't. I'm a hoe, Ant!" she yells. She on some whole other shit. It's like she here but she ain't here. She totally blacked out.
"Quit saying that. It's aight, Jessica, we can work through this. Please, quit saying that." I beg, pulling her to my seat to sit her in my lap. I usually would be pissed at this point but she needs help. This ain't normal. She really does need help and instead of flipping on her and cussing like I usually do, imma be right here by her side instead. "I'm a fucking hoe. I wanna die, Ant." she sobs on my shoulder. Reign gasps. "Momma, quit saying that, you scaring me." Reign cries.
"Shut up, Reign! How the hell I'm scaring you? You don't give a fuck about my hoe ass!" Jessica yells. "That's not true, momma, stop it!" Reign screams, crying hard in her hands. I kiss Jessica's lips. "Calm down, Jessica." I say, staring in her eyes. "I just wanna die, Ant. What's the point of me being here? Everything I do is wrong or it's not good enough. Why can't yall just care about me?" she sobs. "We do care, Jessica." I say, holding her tight. "I love you, Jessica." I whisper in her ear. "So, don't forget it. I know I made mistakes, but don't ever doubt my love for you cause that shit real and it runs deep, okay? Forreal." I add.
She slowly nods her head, crying on my shoulder. "Momma, I'm sorry for saying what I said." Reign says. Jessica doesn't say anything. She climbs back to her seat then buckles her seat belt up. I spot cuts on her arm. I swallow hard, staring at it. I ain't even about to put that on the spot infront of Reign and Amari, imma talk to her about that in private.
I reach over then grab her hand. "I got you, Jessica. You always been here for me through my lowest points, it's my turn to do the same. Just trust me this one time. I can show you better than I can tell you. I got yo back no matter how this shit turn out and I mean it." I say, stroking her ringless finger with my thumb.
"I'm scared." she mumbles. "It's okay to be scared, but just know yo man got you." I assure her. She doesn't say anything as she stares out the window.
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Montana came up here to the hospital. They took blood from me, Reign, and Montana about two hours ago. We paid them extra to get the results tonight. I'm so nervous. What if I'm really not the father?
The doctor opens the door. I glance over at Reign as she sleeps. "Don't wake her up." Jessica mumbles. The doctor hands her the piece of papers. Her eyes widen as she reads it.
"What is it? What it say?" Montana asks. She continues to stare at the paper without saying a word. She folds it back up. "Jessica, tell us something." I say. She shakes Reign. Reign opens her eyes, looking around. Jessica tosses the paper down in her lap. "Here's your answer." she dryly says, then grabs her purse and walks out. Reign's hand shakes as she opens the paper. She gasps then walks out the room, confusing the shit out of me.
TBC...
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