"Got me gravitatin' with infatuation.
Had to cut em' off, baby, amputation. Made that cancellation for a damn queen. Now my hands clean, baby, sanitation." - Montana of 300
JESSICA
Last night was interesting. I'm glad we fucked. I'm still not about to run back to him. I meant what I said to him before we did it. I just wanted some dick in my life and nothing more from him right then. At least I kept it real with him.
"So... you know I nutted in you and you know my soldiers always make it home. Ready to think about baby names? I like Antoni if it's a boy." Ant says, grinning at me. I roll my eyes at him. "Nigga that's an ugly name and I'm not gonna be pregnant. I believe in emergency contraceptives." I say.
"Why go spend damn near fifty dollars on one plan b pill when you can just let my players win the championship and have my baby?" he asks. "Ant, shut the hell up. That weak ass sperm ain't swimming no more. You getting old." I jokingly say.
"Who? Man when I go out with the boys I kid you not, the young hoes be on me thinking I'm twenty something. I don't look old and my sperm still is alive and well. Trust me. Thirty eight is not old." he says, laughing. I throw my middle finger up. I already have plan b pills. I used to buy a lot of them and put them in a bottle so I wouldn't have to keep going to the store.
"Well I'm not having no damn baby. I'm done baby making. I got a five month old baby and a four year old toddler. I'm done with having kids." I say. "If you say so. So, baby, now that we back together and all that, you wanna go on a date? Something real relaxing, private beach, maybe?" Ant asks, wrapping his arms around my waist. I burst into laughter. "Um, who back together? Sex doesn't make us a couple again. I meant what I said. I just wanted some dick from you. I ain't trying to be your woman." I say.
He steps back, glaring at me. "The fuck? I made love to you. Hell, we made love to each other, bruh and I know you was feeling me when I was all up in yo pussy loving on you and all that. For real, Jessica? You got me fucked up. We back together and that's that." he says. I laugh a little. "I know you want this for life." I playfully sing.
"Mane, no indeed. You trifling for playing with my emotions." he says. "You the last one who can say anything about playing with somebody's emotions. I meant what I said. You stuck your dick in my son's teacher and that was the very last straw. We can fuck and everything and I'll suck your dick and all that but I don't wanna be with you or anybody for that matter. To be real with you, you looking real sexy right now and since the kids are at school I want you to fuck me hard in the hot tub." I admit.
He shakes his head. "I don't even know this person I'm talking to. Bruh you ain't acting shit like the Jessica I know. What the fuck going on?" he asks, looking disturbed. "Nothing is going on. This is what a woman who is sick and tired looks like. Hell imma play it how you play it. You're so used to me being weak and crawling back but those days are over. I'm so done with your ass. It'll take a miracle for me to come back to you. Hell it's gone take more than some apologies and some dick for me to come back." I say.
He bites his lip. "I'm not giving up on you. I don't care about none of what you just said. You said it's gone take more than dick and apologies? Bet. Imma give you just that." he says. "Blah blah blah nigga it'll take a miracle for you to keep your word." I say.
He smacks his lips. "Let's go on a date then." he says. "Actually I had plans for the day. Kareem and I are going to the park and getting ice cream truck then we're gonna go to Six Flags too." I lie. Those were the first things Ant and I did together when we were teenagers and I want to see his reaction.
"Hell naw. You failed at trying to make me jealous. I know you lying." he says, making me laugh. I wrap my arms around him, looking up at his face. "What you doing since you don't want a nigga?" he asks. "I want something else." I answer, biting my lip. I'm throwing myself all on him for a reason. When I wanted him to be serious with us, he was just being sex crazed, inconsiderate, and not trying so I feel like he needs a taste of his own medicine. He smacks his lips. "Get the fuck off me. You ain't finna just use me for dick." he says.
