Smudging Colors

Chapter 8- Secrets Come Out

*Anesthesia's POV*

Me and Orion walked out of school together, and the guys met up with us at the end of the sidewalk in front of the street sign in front of the school. I noticed that the guys had been acting weird all day, but I couldn't quite figure out why. Orion had an angry look on his face anytime that we were around the guys, but then when he was focused on me, he was happy, and sweet without a trace of hostility. The guys left before we did, so we stood there on the corner of the street for 15 minutes after they left. Then Orion looked at me and said, "Hey beautiful, do you wish to go now?" I replied blushing, "Yes, we can go now." We walked down the street, and Orion suddenly stopped and asked me, "Do you want me to carry you so that you don't have to walk?" I replied with a whispered, "Yes please." He picked me up and I locked my arms around his neck to make sure I wouldn't fall. I started to feel butterflies in my stomach, and I couldn't stop smiling. I am naturally a depressed person so seeing me smile was a rarity. I looked at him and when he seen me smiling, he smiled as well. We were both smiling, and then when we got to the mall we walked to Hot Topic, and we browsed around for an hour. At one point while we were in the store, he walked away from me and went to the counter and bought something. I wasn't going to be nosy, so I didn't ask what it was. When we walked out of Hot Topic, we walked over to some benches in the middle of the mall, and we sat down. He got out the bag that he got from Hot Topic, and he told me to close my eyes. I closed them, and I felt something cold and thin being put around my neck. When I was told to open my eyes, I looked at my neck, and there was a heart necklace, and on the back there was "love" written in cursive. I looked up at him, and smiled. I said "Thank you for being so nice to me Orion. I have some things that I need to tell you but I'm scared that you will hate me or think different of me after I tell you." he looked at me with his gorgeous amber eyes, and he said to me, "I wouldn't leave you. Ever. I want to stay by your side and help you solve all of your problems. You can tell me anything. I won't leave you. That's a promise." I looked him in the eyes and I knew that he was telling the truth. I began to tell him my story. 

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Anesthesia's Story- "When I was younger, my father was abusive to my mother because he was an alcoholic. Me and my mom left him while we had a chance, and we got away at the right time. We had to move around and keep moving so that he wouldn't find us. Then  a few years ago he did, and he started causing a bunch of problems. Because of a nickname that he gave me when I was younger, I developed anorexia. Then I started to self harm because I couldn't tell anyone about my problems because they would leave after I let them in. Then a few ears after I started to self harm, I began to take medicine to help with my anxiety, which only furthered my thoughts of suicide. I told my mom about my suicidal thoughts, but I didn't tell her about my self harm. I am going through counseling, but I still self harm because it gives me comfort. I moved here to get away from my dad, and fake friends that lied to me. That's my story."

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He had a sad look in his eyes, and he said, "You aren't the only one." He rolled up his sleeves, and he had a mix of healing and fresh cuts on his arm, and I bent down and kissed his cuts. he smiled at my effort to make him feel better, and I felt like a better person. He said, "You are such a fragile person and you deserve the best. I have a question to ask you." I said, "Ask away." Then he takes a deep breath and says,"Will you be-" He was cut off by my phone vibrating loudly. I looked at it and it was my boyfriend Mattie calling me. I answered the call.

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Anesthesia- Hello?

Mattie- Hey baby.

Anesthesia- Baby, what's wrong? You sound weird. 

Mattie- I just drank a few shots and smoked a little weed. That's all.

Anesthesia- Are you sure that's it baby? I can hear a girl in the background.

Mattie- Oh... By the way... I want to break up with you. I have been cheating on you for the past month since you moved to Florida. 

Anesthesia- What? Who are you cheating on me with?

Mattie- Brittany. Your ex- friend.

Anesthesia- Nice to know that. I hope that you're happier with her than you were with me. Have a nice relationship.

Mattie- I'm sorry. I still love you though. 

Anesthesia- I don't want your apologies,and if you really loved me, you wouldn't have done what you did. I will talk to you later.I have to go. Have fun with your new girlfriend.

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When I hung up, Orion asked me what was wrong. I told him, "My boyfriend was cheating on me with that "friend" that I told you about. He has been cheating on me since I moved. He just broke up with me."Then he looked at me with sadness in his eyes. He said, "He didn't deserve you. You deserve someone that will treat you like the beautiful and fragile person that you are. You deserve someone that will love you everyday for the rest of your life." I smiled at his efforts to make me feel better. I started to cry, and when he seen me cry, he pulled me close to him on the bench, and I buried my face in his chest. When I brought my face up to look at him, he was looking down at me, and he was starting to cry too. I asked him, "Why are you crying Orion?" He said, "I hate seeing you this way. It breaks my heart to see you upset." I looked at him and smiled. I said, "Well that's of the past now. What were you going to ask me before my phone rang?" He looked at me and said, " I don't know if it's a good idea to ask you now." "Ask away." I said. Then he took a deep breath, and said, "Will you be my girlfriend?" I looked at him, and studied his face. His eyes were beaming with honesty and I could tell that he honestly cared for me. I smiled and said, "I'd love to be your girlfriend." He smiled, stood up, picked me up off the bench, wrapped me in a hug, and swung me around in a circle. I could tell that he was happy. I knew that he liked me and that inside, I liked him too. I think that I might even love him.

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