1: Friends Before Fame. (William Singe)

Chapter 76

***WILLIAM'S P.O.V***

I can do this, I said to myself before walking into Shona's room. I walked in and seen her laying there helplessly when she really doesn't deserve to be there. I would rather take her place right now, just so I would know that she was safe. Right now, its clear to me, she isn't safe, her life could be over all because of me. How could I do this to someone!! How could I do this to her!!! If she doesn't wake up and that life support gets turned off I'm pretty much a murderer. And its all because I forced her to do something she didn't want to do. Why did I have to be such an idiot and completely ignore her answer and then engourage her to do it when there was clearly a reason why she didn't want to. Maybe next time I should respect her decision and take her answer seriously. Mann, I'm such a jerk, how could she even accept me as her boyfriend??

I sit on the bed beside Shona very gently not wanting to interrupt any of the cords coming from her lifeless body. I gently take her hand and its freezing cold. I pull the blanket up over her and as I do this she moves her head to the side where I'm sitting.

'Shona? Can you hear me?' I ask but she doesn't move nor respond in any way. 'Shona?' I ask again and still no responce in any way. Damn it, the little bit of hope that I just gained from her moving her head is now lost. I move her hair from her eyes and I kiss her forehead. I'm missing her already. Her voice, her smile, her laugh, her kisses, her hugs, her blushing cheeks, I'm missing HER! I cannot believe I done this to her. I feel horrible and worthless and selfish and I'm discusted with myself for what I done to her.

I took her hand again and started talking to her knowing that she wouldn't hear me, I still done it.

'Shona, I'm so sorry this happened to you. I never knew your asthma and anxiety was this bad. Why didn't you just tell me how bad it was? I would have understood why you didn't want to do the comp then. I feel horrible knowing I was the one who pretty much forced you do the talent competition. I never would have done it if I had known this would have happened.' I stated and sighed.

'I'm missing you already Shona. I hate seeing you like this. But you're still beautiful with cords connected to you and that's saying something cause not many people can pull that off.' I stated and smiled slightly.

'I'm never going to be able to forgive myself for doing this to you. I'll never be able to look in the mirror the same way at myself. I love you Shona and you mean more than the world to me. That's why I need you to pull through, because I don't know how long I can last without you. You are now the reason I wake up every morning. You are the reason I haven't missed a day of school since we started talking. You are my reason for breathing Shona, and I love you too much to lose you. Please Shona, wake up, for your mum, for André, for Chad, Alexis, Niki and Ryan, for everyone who cares so much about you. Please Shona please wake up for yourself, for me, for us and our relationship.' I finished and then there was a knock at the door. I turned around and my mum and dad were standing there.

'What are you guys doing here? What happened to work?' I asked.

'We both left early to come and make sure you were handling it okay.' Dad answered.

'Ohh okay, thanks.' I replied and they walked in.

'Are you alright?' My dad asked.

'Not so much alright, but I'm scraping through if that answers your question.' I answered and they both came over to me.

'Aww honey. Its hard isn't it.' Mum asked as she hugged me.

'Yeah. Especially when you feel like you're guilty of why they're laying in that hospital bed.' I answered and they both looked at me shocked.

'She never wanted to do the talent competition. I convinced her and engcouraged her until she agreed to do it. I should have just respected her decision but I didn't and now I feel horrible.' I admitted and they sighed.

'Will, don't say that. She would have done it if a small part of her wanted to, maybe you engouraging her made her want to do it more. You might have helped her make the decision. But I'm sure she wouldn't want you to be thinking like that, so stop...........for her, okay?' My mum tried to convince me.

'I'll try.' I answered and she smiled.

'That's my boy.' She replied and hugged me again.

'Is it okay if I stay here for the night. I asked her parents earlier and they approved, so is it okay with you guys?' I asked hopefully.

'Sure William. Just keep us updated okay?' My dad responsed and I agreed.

'Thanks.' I responded then turned my attention back to Shona.

'How much did you hear of what I said before?' I asked.

'Most of it son.' Dad answered and patted my shoulder. 'But don't be ashamed by it, it just proves how much you love and care for her.' He continued and I smiled. My mum and dad kissed her cheek and then tried to convince me to stay strong for her before heading back to work. Now its time for the waiting game, with me waiting for Shona to show me another sign of hope.......

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