*just a quicky chap :3 *
So it is sunday.
Friday didn't go to well... nothing happened with kharma and my friends constantly made me feel like shit. So I didn't write. On saturday I spent the whole day waiting around to hang out with my friends... I could have done a lot of stuff that I wanted to do, paint, babysit, shop. But no I spent all day waiting to be blown off. Then Alex said she'd come round at 2 to help me babysit and ended up blowing me off a second time that day. So I spent the rest of the afternoon on my bed, drowning. Drowning in comforting music. I did what I haven't done and have needed for a long time. I don't know why I cried? I supose I've been strong enough to hold it in and I just broke down. I couldn't stop crying and I never wanted to cry.. just did. I wasn't crying because I was ditched. I was crying because, my crush avoids me, my friends make me feel depressed and my home life is silently falling apart. Every song I put on seemed to scream shards of my fragmented life! which ... as I sung along just made me cry more , but I couldn't help myself.
Ruby came online and from the moment she began talking to me I instantly felt better. She didn't know I was crying and yet still helped. Thats why I love (not in a gay way) ruby. She never makes me sad and always makes me smile; she's the best kind of friend.
I woke up feeling great and I was on facebook. Alex messeged me asking if I could gain her tumblr followers.... typical alex hahaha XD. After 10-20 mins guess who came online.... KHARMA! I tremmbled as I typed hey.... do I send it?... after some very well searched for courage I pressed enter after adding the :/ face to show I was nervous. A minute ticked by.. a very slow minute and then as if I was struck with the greatest luck ever! he replied!!! I talked to him for a couple of minutes. Nothinng more then our usual conversation if anything a bit awkward... but OMG HE'S TALKING TO ME AGAIN!!! this is amazing!!! In heat of the moment I messeged alex ' guess who's talking to kharma!!! to which she replied... 'you? I thought you were over him..' I fummled through my thoughts for a reasonable answer and ended up saying, I am over him! I'm talking to him as a friend. SHe went offline straight after... oh well I'm so happy!!!! :D
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Teen FictionTo sum this 'story' up. I guess it's just a rough copy of what I get up to and my endless battle to get close to my crush. So thank you for reading if you do read this and I hope you enjoy it :3 thank you!! The thing with this story ... who am I ki...
