Author: Angelina
Translator: Adrian JulianMai Ding was creating a raucous outside An Ziyan's room, and the latterwas awoken by it. He tried covering his head and ears but he couldn't help but hearhow this boy both hated and loved him.By the time Ziyan finally got up to open the door, Mai Ding was no longer there.The next day, fully aware of what he had done, Mai Ding decided to stay away fromAn Ziyan. He didn't know what possessed him to say all those stupid things out loud.Now the cat's out of the bag. How is he ever going to face An Ziyan? 'He hates me, Iam sure. He's straight but he had to have another guy liking him.' The more Mai Dingthought about it, the more he was overwhelmed by feelings of regret. 'Why was I sobloody rash?' More thoughts bombarded his mind and thoughts of suicide crossed hismind.Mai Ding was exiting the toilet when he saw An Ziyan. He immediately rushed backin. For those who did not know what he was doing, it might even seem like he was apervert. And when Ziyan walked past his classroom, Mai Ding would use a book tocover his face. If they bumped into each other while walking up the stairs, Mai Dingwould walk hurriedly away, disappearing from An Ziyan's sight. In fact, it wouldseem to some that Mai Ding had a radar, always looking out for An Ziyan. When histarget was spotted, Mai Ding would run away faster than others. And this went on forseveral days.
Mai Ding was done with school and was about to return to his dorm when he saw AnZiyan waiting outside his classroom by the railings.
'How long are you going to hidefrom me, Mai Ding?'
AnZiyan asked. Mai Ding wanted to respond but he didn't knowhow to. Instead, he threw the books he was carrying at An Ziyan and ran in theopposite direction. Unfortunately for Mai Ding, his legs were a tad shorter than AnZiyan's and in the end, he was caught by the person he loved and hated the most.
'You are such an asshole.'
AnZiyan cursed after grabbing Mai Ding.
'Let me go! Else I am going to shout for help.'
Mai Ding threatened, half struggling.
'What the fuck are you shouting for? Why are you running away?'
'I have lost all my self-respect...and...I can't face you.'
'Why can't you face me?' Ziyan pursued.
'Do you even have to ask? It's because of those words I said that night.'
'What words?'
AnZiyan decided to pretend that he heard nothing, afraid that byconfirming that he had heard Mai Ding's confession, this boy would stay away fromhim forever.Mai Ding calmed down a lot more after hearing that.
'You mean you did not hearanything that night?'
'What? What did you say?'
Mai Ding heaved a sigh of relief. Thank God for that, Mai Ding thought to himself.That way, he can still be An Ziyan's friend. As long as An Ziyan doesn't hate him, hewanted the next best thing: his companionship and friendship. He flashed a suddensmile and said, 'Why didn't you say so earlier?'
Mai Ding is really an idiot, An Ziyan thought to himself. He was so loud that night.How could I not have heard it? But he did not want to say it. And so that was how Mai Ding and An Ziyan's friendship returned to normal as ifnothing had happened. But for Mai Ding, even though things have indeed returned tohow it was in the past, he still couldn't face An Ziyan in the calm way he that he usedto. Mai Ding didn't know whether to rejoice or to be upset by the fact that he was nowAn Ziyan's friend. At times, he wanted to just confess his love for Ziyan one moretime.
Let him hate me for all I care, he thought. But after thinking it through, he didn'tdare to. He wouldn't want to gamble away what he had just reclaimed, especiallywhen the friendship he has now was something that was so dear to him.
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