Will you still love me even if I'm a man?

Chapter 76: Don't Try it in the Future

Translator: Angela

An Ziyan, you were right. What' there to cry about? It's not like I'll die.

Every day, Mai Ding travelled from home to the hospital and back again, yet his grandmother and mother never once saw him smile. It was as if he had no more emotions. While taking care of his grandmother, Mai Ding became more and more thin and frail by the day. He was so thin that his grandmother felt sorry for him as she held his hand, "Little Ding, you should eat some as well."

"Grandmother, I have no appetite."

"Why must you torture yourself? Isn't it better just to get over it?"

"Grandmother, how do you want me to get over it? I left An Ziyan not because I do not love him, but because of you, because of all of you. The place in my heart called love hurts so much every day that I'd rather die. So why must I choose? Why?" Mai Ding buckled onto his grandmother's bed, not able to suppress his feelings.

Grandmother patted Mai Ding's head: "Everything will pass and you will slowly get better, trust me."

Mai Ding stood up, picked up the dishes, and smiled bitterly: "My heart will not mend, it will only slowly die. Maybe it'll be better if it dies, at least I won't feel pain anymore. Grandmother, I'm going back now.

I'm come see you again tomorrow." Mai Ding walked out the door with the lunch boxes in his hands. As his grandmother watched Mai Ding, she could only sigh. At the hospital entrance, he bumped into his mother, who couldn't help but try to persuade him as well:

"Can't you be a little happier?"

"You stifle my love, and now what? You want to kill my emotions as well?" Once he finished speaking, Mai Ding left. That's right. This time, this time he wouldn't be selfish anymore. He no longer had to worry about people suddenly falling ill because of him or worry about the burdens of love. Now everything was easier and more relaxed, so relaxed that he couldn't even tell if he was still alive or not.

"Oh you, you're so naughty, your words and actions do not match;

Oh you, you're too serious, you're only satisfied if everyone in the world is good;

Oh you, you're too impatient, a mind full of problems and a stomach full of rage;

Oh you, you're too unreasonable, always wanting to engage in some formalities;

Just when I thought I would never meet someone who would move me for the rest of my life, I met you;

Even if you have a bunch of unfixable problems, I still fell in love with you;

All of those times I made you cry, you have to understand that I didn't mean to do so;

This world is already so crowded, but I will leave a piece of empty space beside me for you;

I just want to tell you, when you hurt, I am no better off;

I just want you to listen to this song I wrote for you;

Since we fell in love, then let's not stop;

I forgot to say one thing, your name is Mai Ding."

Mai Ding quietly held his phone up to his ear, listening to this on repeat. The evidence of An Ziyan's existence proved that everything was not a dream, it was merely over between them.

An Ziyan was in no better condition. No matter how much other people tried to destroy their relationship in the past, An Ziyan never gave up. But when Mai Ding was crying while begging him, crying while apologizing, crying to break up, An Ziyan couldn't bear to increase Mai Ding's pain and just left. He never thought that the words "break up" would cause him so much pain. It hurt him so much that he could not stand up.