Will you still love me even if I'm a man?

Chapter 51: Are you feeling lonely?

Author: Angelina

Translator: Kornkong &Holeeger Interfans /艾姆瑞斯101

"Spread the news out, i want him to be shamed till he give up living" after finish saying, wu xin cut off the phone line.

One day, two days,one week, two weeks, maiding do not know how to go thru these days. Everyday, he happily goes to school till school ends.
His smiles becomes a tool, his heart is empty that no matter how much tears he shed yet unable to fill the emptiness.
There is nowhere to get news from anziyan. In the beginning, he would have gone all out to search for him, but after his hope got shattered one after another, maiding become afraid. He could only crawl back into his safe zone. Maybe tomorrow he will appear. No no no, maybe is the day after tomorrow, is okay. Even if he don't appear that day, he will someday.
Now all that is left for him is wait...
"Anziyan, i am not in a rush... I have my whole lifetime to wait for you."
Today, as usual, he went to school, once he reach school, maiding already notice that many student are gossipping about him while some even pointed at him. He do not know what are they talking about. When he try to move closer, they will quickly shut up and move away. They way they look at maiding was as if he have terminal disease. Maiding bite tight his lower lips, trying hard not to care much of what these people is giving him.

Those student in his class, keep turning back to look at him during lesson. This made maiding very uncomfortable. He looks down and try to look at himself trying to find for some problem with himself,what is weird about himself today? Why is everyone looking at him?
After the class, maiding went to the washroom. Student there too try to avoid him. Very fast, the washroom is empty and only left maiding alone in there. Maiding bend down and turn on the tap. He use the cold water to wash his face. The water wet his hair and eyes. Maiding look up and look himself in the mirror.

"Do you know that guy name maiding?"

There was conversation outside the washroom. Maiding hide inside the cubicle. Two boys walked into the washroom. They continue their conversation.

"I heard that he likes boys, now it seems that the whole school knows"

The news was a shock to maiding. He lean against the wall and realised know why everyone acted this way this morning. Everyone knows....

"I already knew it. Somehow he don't look like one. He usually acted as if he is so morale, look what he do when no one watching!"

"I see that you are quite interested. Are you eyeing him?"

"I am into those that like to pretend to be morale. Thats more fun"

"You are indeed hooligans"

Maiding hold tight his fist. Those boys outside notices something is not right, they signaled each other and one of them kick the door and find maiding behind it.
The boy laugh wickedly "oh, is you. Hiding in the cubicle wants to peep boys pee?" The boy move closer to maiding. The other boy made some wicked laughter beside.

"Get lost"

"Yo! Bad temper! Is it because you don't have a man to sayisfy you? Do you want me ShengGe to satisfy you?"

"Wtf, careful with your mouth"

The boy name shengge laughed. "Careful? What a joke! You are just as low as me, what is there to pretend? I will treat you well. When you are in bed, you will know how good it feels. How?"

"I am not same as you. Move away"

"What if i don't move? If you don't like bed, we can do it here"

Maiding gave shengge a slap on his face. Shengge got abit angry. "Wtf! I ask nicely you give me such a reply! Don't blame me for being mean!" While he say it, he grab maiding's wrist, and he try to force his hand into maiding's clothes. Maiding struggled. At this moment, a teacher walked pass and shouted "what are you doing?!"
Shengge and the other boy quickly pull an innocent face "teacher! Is not our fault! He is the one that seduce us"
"You two quickly go back to your class"

"Yes sir"

After saying, shengge gave maiding a cunning smile. And he went off together with the other boy. The teacher stare at maiding, a stare that maiding do not like.

"You follow me to the office"

Maiding with his head hanging low, follow teacher from behind.
Once in the office, the teacher sips his tea, "you are into those stuff... Now it is university, i have no rights to control anything, but you have to take care of your conduct and behaviour in the school. Look at what happen. This should not be the way. This is a school, you are student, try not to do things that shame yourself"
Maiding did not say anything, he just stare at the teacher. Even teachers knows too. He could not listen even to one word, he only look at his teacher's mouth that open and close, saying those hurtful words.
Is it because he have finish using all of his happiness? Therefore god is punishing him for his greediness?
"Alright, go back to your class. Think over what you should do and what you shouldn't do"

Maiding left the office, his footsteps are heavy. Looking at the path infront yet he do not know what to do. Where can he go? Is there still a place for him? But very soon, maiding took a deep breath and walk towards his classroom. Is okay! I still can handle this. Let the torture continues! Pitiful people are like worms.. Only able to find their happiness thru hurting people.

All of anziyan's time, he use it to play the piano. He play is night and day. His sad melody made people feel so hurtful. At this moment, anshu walk in. Anziyan did not stop playing.

"How long do you still want meaninglessly fight against us?"

Anziyan ignore her.

Anshu continue "a few more days, maiding will totally forget about you"
Anziyan without any changes in his expression "he will wait for me"
"Wait for you? There is not a single news of you! How long can he wait? One month? One year? Or ten years?"

"Even if is forever, he got to wait"

"Wa! You are too confidence in him! You are facing with so much trouble stuff now and you have time to care about other things! If you are so capable, just ignore mum's live or dead and walk out of this house! You can't can you? Because if you left, and something really happen to mum, then you both will have to carry this guilt, anziyan, give up! You are helpless now for your love. How can a child win against his parents?!"

Anziyan with a firm face continue playing the piano "is that so?"

"Still so stubborn! Oh i forgot to tell you, mum have forcefully collect back that house you rent outside, she even kick maiding out of house that day, how pitiful, all alone with so much luggage at night on the street, and mum even spread the news that he likes man to the school. Now everyone at school knows. If you are his man, where are you now?"

Anziyan strongly press onto the keys on the keyboard, the piano as if could feel the pain from anziyan and create a painful sound to the ears. Anshu cover her ears, anziyan stand up and walk one step towards anshu. He pinched anshu's face "you all, do not touch him"

"If you don't admit your wrong, mum and dad will not leave him alone. What now? Angry? Hit me!"
Anziyan pinch harder. "You guys so hopeful that i don't get my happiness?! You are my real sister!" After finish saying, he release her and push her out of his room. Anshu stood outside, stunned. The words and sad eyes of anziyan, how long she have not seen those expression...
Why you don't want me to get my happiness? You are my real sister!

These words keep repeating inside anshu's head. Have what she thought is good for anziyan is actually hurting him?
Is she too felt ashame of his brother? Felt is maiding that seduce his brother and he getting such treatment is totally reasonable? But why as days pass, it feel alot more as if all these is torturing anziyan more? How good can this do for herself?
... For all your torturing and sorrow, i will redeem back for you. Very soon...
Unable to get blessing for your love... Are you lonely?