Will you still love me even if I'm a man?

Chapter 29: Sadness in Love

Author: Angelina
Translator: 菜菜 /Kornkong international FC

Li Ming almost flings himself down to make an apology to Mai Ding, but Mai Ding doesn't say anything at all.

"The blame rests entirely with me. I should go to the hell. I didn't know that the two bad girls set a trap for you. How about explaining it to An Ziyan? I can do it." Li Ming feels so guilty about what he has done makes Mai Ding in trouble.

One pillow is coming to Li Ming. Mai Ding speaks in a muffled voice: "I don't want to talk to him. He didn't believe me at all. Explanations are a waste of time. He should go to the hell, a total bastard. I don't want to see him any more."

"You cannot blame this entirely on him. As a man, he must be angry at this thing. He treats you as his lover."

"So you mean it is my fault." Mai Ding gets up from the bed.

"Everything is my fault, and Zhu Li's." Li Ming tries to flatter Mai Ding.

"What if we cannot go through this testing?"

"It is not a testing but a common thing. You should consider it from his point of view. What would you do if you receive a photo of him and the other woman on the bed? He loves you so much, so he gets angry. Do you understand this thing?" Li Ming tries his best to explain.

"I don't care what you say. I have decided that I will never see him." Mai Ding made an impertinent decision.

Li Ming sighs and he knows that what he has said is in vain and what An Ziyan said is important.

At that time, someone is knocking at the door. Suddenly Mai Ding becomes nervous: An Ziyan mightn't happen to come back. I am so angry with him, but I cannot suppress the desire to see him. It is so good for nothing.

Mai Ding winks at Li Ming, and Li Ming comes to open the door, seeing a middleaged woman standing in the doorway. Mai Ding just sees his mother standing there. He asks in a disappointed voice: "It is you. So why are you here?"

"How dare you talk so much? I just want to give you a surprise." Mai Ding's mother is unsatisfied with his son's behavior.

"Hello, aunt." Li Ming gets out of the way for Mai Ding's mother respectfully.

"So you are the roommate of Mai Ding? You are so kind to help Mai Ding."

"Auntie, you are too kind."

Mai Ding interrupts their polite talk: "What do you want to do here?"

"It is a surprise for you. You father has been transferred, so we have to move. We have called the president. You just need fill an application. Are you happy for that?" Mai Ding's mother says in an amused tone.

Mai Ding is just standing there and goes blank. He begins to numb from feet to heart. Ironically, so many wishes have not come true, but this time it comes true. Obviously he is insincere. He heads down and looks at feet: "I don't want to go."

In fact, Mai Ding still has a glimmer of hope. He thinks that as long as An Ziyan comes back, they are gonna get through this. But it is taken away.

"What you say is nonsense. How could we leave you alone here? What the matter with you? You have said that you dislike the school and want to go somewhere else. Relax; a new school will have a good contact for you. This school is both near to our home and your dad's work place.

This surprising news is closing on me. He is more partial to one man, not for the school.

Li Ming is also surprised by the news: "Auntie, what such a rush decision. Don't you think it is actually pretty good here?"

"I have to do this. In fact we made the decision one month ago, because I want to give Mai Ding a surprise. Why does he react like this?" Mai Ding's mother stares at his pale face.

"I go out for a few minutes." Mai Ding rushes out of the dormitory and calls An Ziyan with heavy breathing. Because An's grandpa's condition is improved, he goes back home for sleeping. As soon as he falls asleep, a new call is coming in. He doesn't see the caller's ID, frowning a bit: "So what?"

His voice with much impatience lets Mai Ding down again. He grits his lip: "An Ziyan. I have to transfer to another school."

An Ziyan opens his eyes, listens to Mai Ding's breathing, but he doesn't speak. "An Ziyan. I have to go. Don't you have some reaction? If you say that you don't want to me go, I will make efforts to stay here. Please say something."

"Whatever you want to do, I don't care." An Ziyan hangs up the phone. He doesn't know why he speaks like this. That photo is lingering in his mind. He is angry that Mai Ding did such an in excusable thing. He doesn't know how to control the emotion that he has never have. They suffer from the strange feeling. He feels the sadness of love. This kind of pain makes him could not fall asleep.

What does our love count for you, An Ziyan? I am subservient and servile. Why do you do those cruel things to me? I am afraid that I will weep for you.

Mai Ding goes back to dormitory soon. He smiles to his mother: "I will fill in the drop-out application."

Li Ming can see the sorrow behind his smile If they break up by mistake, it will be a pity.

"OK, I will help you to pack."

Mai Ding is busy with everything about the application. Something goes bad. Li Ming calls An Ziyan, but it cannot connect. When Mai Ding finishes all things, his things are packed. Mai Ding doesn't have many friends in school, so he just says goodbye to Li Ming. Li Ming wants to say something but he doesn't. It happened accidentally.

This morning they just talked about An Ziyan, but this afternoon they have to say goodbye.

"I will come over if I have time. It is not so far away." Mai Ding smiles and pats Li Ming's shoulder.

"Yes, it just takes six hours by car." Mai Ding's mother says.

"Take care."

"I am glad to be your roommate. I will tell you my new phone number soon." Mai Ding nods his head.

"Don't say such sickening things. I send you off." Li Ming takes Mai Ding's luggage, and they go out of the bedroom. Mai Ding's mother and Li Ming go ahead. Mai Ding stands in front of room 501, touching the door softly. It seems that he will never walk in.

"Ding, hurry up." It is too late. They is likely to miss the car.

Mai Ding and Li Ming say goodbye to each other. He gets on the car. When the car is staggering to the door of An's room, Mai Ding looks at it. Mai Ding doesn't want to break up with An. He cannot go through the days and memories without An Ziyan. Thinking about it, Mai Ding cannot help crying. The place is become smaller and smaller. Mai Ding comes to a breakdown. He begins to sob, then cries louder. People in this car constantly look at them. Mai Ding's mother gets a panic. She never thinks that Mai Ding has such deep feelings for the school, then she hand out the paper to

Mai Ding: "well, stop crying."

"I don't wanna cry, but I am so sad."

An Ziyan, Love is something that only belongs to you.