Im Not a Monster

chapter 21: close call.

(Dedicated to: Harley_Quinn_Realest for....basically everything! mostly being supportive to this book:) anyway go on reading!)

I gave up with him. I didn't know what to do. I blanked out.

I've been sitting in the same spot for about an hour just thinking. Jared didn't make a sound. I don't even think he was still by the door. I haven't heard a noise in the house. I hope he's sleeping so he can wake up to the normal fucking reality. I tap my feet on the floor. I got chills just having flashbacks of what happened. I grab my sweater. Right when I sit back down I hear a knock. I freeze. There was silence. He didn't say a word yet and neither did I.

"Margot?" he whispered

"Hm?"

"Uh- can I,can I come in?"

"I really don't feel like getting up." I calmly said

He ends up getting in anyway. My back was turned around. I heard him stop. I look back. He was a few feet away from me.

"Um...you can...sit down over there."

Jared listens and sits down on a chair across the room.

"What do you want." I said still turned around.

"Well...first of all can you at least look at me."

I turn around. My eyes started getting watery. He notices and sighs.

"You okay?" he whispered

I nod my head slowly.

"Yeah just a little thing I'm kinda pissed about but I'm okay. ill deal with it."

I sigh

"Just have to get used to it..." I finshed

"what happened?" he asked

"you. That's what happened."

He bites his lip and looks away.

"don't tell me what I did."

"No I'm not. I don't even wanna speak about it...or think about it." I said glaring at him.

I put the edges of the sleeve of my sweater over my hands. I rest my head on my hands. i look at Jared while he does the same back. Out of no where a tear streams down my face. I put my hands on my lap and look away.

He stands up and walks towards me. All of a sudden he grabs hands and pulls me up. I gently pushes my head into his chest and hugs me. Tightly. He slowly sways back and forward. He stokes my hair. I smile. For some reason I didn't feel no pressure. I'm comfortable now. Its something with him that lights me up. Jared looks at me and wipes the tear with his thumb. He gives me a sad smile. I chuckle.

"Gosh I just hate you sometimes."

He laughs.

"Your a Healer." I whispered.

Jared smiles. He lifts my chin and we make eye contact. His blue eyes sink into mine. He slowly bends down. He looks at my lips. I gulp. I had the feeling of 'butterflies in my stomach'. I take a deep breath. We were inches away,but coming closer each second. He puts his hand on my waist,while I wrap my around his neck. I chuckle coming even more closer. I close my eyes-

The phone rings. Jared pulls his head back. I look at my phone that was on my bed. He walks over and grabs it.

"Here I'll answer." I said smiling

He looks away and walks back to my chair.

"Hello?"

"Margot?" a mans voice said

"Oh hey Bruce!"

"Guess what!"

"What is it?" I said smiling

"I'm here!"

"what."

"yeah! Ya wanna meet up somewhere?" he asked

I look at Jared.

"ermmmmmm. Well how long are you gonna be in town?"

"two weeks."

"Okayyy so that's enough time."

"Uh huh..." he said waiting for me to say something

"so how bout this...im kinda busy right now and I have some filming to do this week. So how about this weekend we hang out and do rad stuff."

"Sounds perfect! Anything you say!"

"okay great! See you then! Have a good one." I cheerfully said

"you too!"

I throw the phone on my bed and walk to the kitchen.

"You want anything to drink?"  I asked

"who was that?" Jared asked

"A new friend from Australia."

"Cool and uh I'll take some tea."

"Raspberry?"

"Sure why not."

I pour the tea in a cup and hand it to Jared.

"So is this friend of yours....a true legit Aussie?"he asked raising his eyebrow

I laugh.

"oh yeah,and he's got the heaviest accent ever."

"oh its a guy?"

"yeah hopefully you two get along well." I chuckled

"yeah hopefully."

After the conversation drifted off I look at Jared. I smile at him.

"What?" he said grinning

"nothing." I said holding in a laugh

"What!?" he laughed

"I don't know."

"your weird."he said grinning

"Yeah I get it from you." I chuckeld

"Ohhhhh i see what you did there!"

"Bitch." I said under my mouth.

"What was that?"

"I said lilo and stitch."

"Yeah right mother-"

I cut him off.

"Ah! Language."

"don't be like that captain america dude." he said flipping his phone eyes

I scoff.

"Rude ass." I laughed

"Your lucky your not my brother. If he would've said that that'd be the end."

"What would you do?"

"You don't wanna know but some crazy shit I tell you that."

I laugh.

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"well...what do you wanna do?" I asked

"ummm..."

"you know...ive never been to your place."I said.

"what!? I thought you've been there before!?"

"I don't think so. And I did I don't remember."

"well off we go then." he said walking towards the door.

(Hey sorry for the short chapter:(
I'm kinda running out of ideas. I don't even know what to do for the next chapter:/ but! I gave all you toots this one!:) and yes if you ask about the gif on top...I made it. And I might not work a little but whatever. Anyway stay tuned!!😀. )