Trilogy

Chapter 42

Winter.

"Hey Noelle."

"I DON'T WADDLE!"

"Calm down. I ain't say ya did."

"I'm sorry it's the pregnancy hormones."

"It's all good Noelle."

"How was your break?"

"It was a live seen, me, baybeh girl, and the team shut it down in NOLA. We really cut up and everything. I got ta spend some time with my family and grub like no tomorrow. All in all it was cool. How was ya break?"

His accent had me on another planet. I love when he comes back after the holidays. I know this is all me, hormones aside.

"Noelle ya good? You scaring me. Say something."

"I'm good. Stop worrying. I just spaced out. She's kicking, feel."

"Oh wow. This is crazy. I can't wait ta be a father. I swear my kid will have the world and the whole galaxy if that's what they want."

Something about that made me feel a type of way. It made me feel that regret that I had when all this first started. While I was lost in my thoughts I heard someone clear their throat and I felt August's hands leave my ever growing baby bump. I looked up to see Derrick.

"Hey. I didn't expect to see you till later."

"Ima catch ya later Noelle."

"Okay, bye August."

I turned my attention back to Derrick.

"I thought you would be over with King like usual Derrick."

"Nah. We aren't that close anymore."

I felt even worse because I knew it was my fault.

"Oh."

"Don't feel bad Winter. Some things just don't last forever. But I have something that will." He said smiling down at my stomach but not touching it like he usually does.

"I know what it looked like but it's not what you think. Nothing is going on between us."

Even though I wish it was. I really have mixed feelings because Jeremy just comes and goes whenever, I get a text when he feels like it. I haven't heard from him in a minute. August's relationship with King makes me super jealous even though I know it's not really a relationship but I know he cares for her in a different way than me if he even cares for me at all. Worst of all I ruined an almost 17 year friendship. All because I let some outsiders pump my head up with nonsense. I know King nor Derrick will truly forgive me for what happened as much as they say it doesn't matter. Deep down I know it does. Sometimes it keeps me up at night, thinking about what I've done that can't be undone.

"I can't help but feel like I ruined a good thing."

"Don't even worry it about it. All you have to do is focus on getting my baby girl here with no problems, everything else isn't important."

"You are right."

"Duh. I didn't get this far not knowing anything."

"So you already know about having a baby? You had a baby on the slick and didn't tell anybody?"

"Well actually I've been know to break a few condoms if you know what I mean."

I mean mugged him.

"I'm just playing. Chill."

Something was telling me he was telling the truth but it was a lie in there somewhere.

"You sure? You look like that type of nigga."