I sat at my desk with my face expressionless.
Finn had been sent to the emergency room as soon as we landed. Apparently him and Rey had been forced into a light saber duel with Kylo Ren that i wasn't aware of even though i was present. I guess my mind blacked out not long after Kylo Ren- i choked. I couldn't think about it. I just couldn't. I didn't want to believe it but how could i deny what i saw with my own eyes.
"Ben," i whispered. "Please, please come home." As much as i hated Kylo i could never hate Ben. "Ben," i whimpered burring my head in my hands. "Ben!" I cried my hands clawing at my cheeks, no doubt hard enough to leave marks. Why couldn't i save him? Why couldn't i stop him? Why couldn't things be the way they were 6 years ago.
"Ben," i whispered again. "I loved you."
I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Poe standing there. His face holding the look of concern.
"You were right." I said to him. "Ben is gone." I choked on my words. "He's gone and i couldn't save him.
I rocked back and forth on my chair, " i couldn't save him, i couldn't save Han, and i miss them so much!"
"Shh, Siena, I've got you, its going to be okay," Poe whispered into my hair as he hugged me. I wasn't even aware that he was holding me until then.
"I wasn't good enough. I wasn't strong enough."
"Siena," he said gently yet stern. "Nothing that happened that day was your fault."
I shook my head against his chest.
"I'm so sorry Ben," i whispered. "I'm so sorry."
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To Love the Enemy (Ben Solo / Kylo Ren Fanfic)
Fanfiction- PLEASE READ THE AUTHORS NOTE IN THE FIRST SECTION OF THIS BOOK - Siena Grace and Ben Solo had been friends since they had first met when Ben was recruited to join the Jedi. They were practically inseparable as they trained together in the ways of...
