Dimelo Papi | Zabdiel De Jesus

Chapter 13: Mientes

February 2015

Zabdiel

It's not only Saturday night but it's also Valentine's Day. I really don't want to go out but my friends and I planned to go have dinner. Some of them are bringing dates but a few of us are going as single as can be. As you can guess, I'm single and have been since her. No puedo creer que ya hayan pasado mas de un año.

Of course we had something special but our short-lived love story was doomed. For months I would rarely get sleep, I would just toss and turn all night. I tried to reach her but she cut all ties with me, I even tried to fly to Los Angeles by working to raise money but I realized if I would go she would just reject me. She told me she hated me and didn't love me anymore, day after day I began to think that was true. It's been a year since all of this happened, after some time the people around began to think my broken heart was healed but in reality I still grieve for her. She's basically always on my mind some days more than others.

Although we don't have anything going on anymore I know she's doing great. She's actually pretty famous, she's modeling and acting in Spanish and English. I couldn't be happier for her but it just sucks that when I'm trying to move on I see or hear about her.

"Que pasó." I greet all of my friends as we take our seats at the restaurant.

"Ella es Sara, amiga de mi novia." My friend Enrique presents me a girl, he sits her next to me. This past year they've tried setting me up but have failed. I'm just not interested.

"Hola." I smile at her and resume to talking with my single friends Monica and Alvaro.

"Escuchaste que va ver castings de cantar para un nuevo show de Univisión aquí en San Juan el siguiente mes." Mónica says to me.

"Si escuche. ¿Y que?" I ask confused.

"Eres súper talentoso, debes de audicionar!" she tells me.

"Estas loca." I say to her.

"¿Porque no? No tienes nada que perder y además todos sabemos que ese es uno de tus sueños. ¿Verdad, chicos?" she directs to everyone.

"Bueno pues." I say awkwardly. It's true though, I have nothing to lose and maybe it will get me one step closer to achieving my dream of becoming a musician.

The dinner wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I talked with my friends and laughed. It was obvious that the girl Enrique introduced me to was interested in me but I wasn't interested. I wasn't being a jerk either like I wasn't even sending her mixed signals. She shouldn't take it personal, I do that to every girl.

All of us get in our own cars and leave. If Camila was with me I know we wouldn't be able to keep our hands off of each other during dinner and then after dinner we would leave and go on some adventure.

March 2015

I took the opportunity and decided to audition for La Banda. Within a few minutes I will get to perform in front of the amazing and incredibly talented judges: Ricky Martin, Alejandro Sanz, and Laura Pausini. Hopefully I'll even get the chance to perform since the audience gets to vote if you even perform. God I'm so nervous, I feel like I could faint at any moment. I'm sweating and it's so noticeable.

"Esta es tu gran oportunidad, ok mi amor. Tranquilo y humilde como siempre. Este, tú puedes hacerlo." My mom kisses me on the cheek before my big moment.

"¿Ora por mi ma?" I request to my mom.

"¿Oro por ti?"

"Por favor." I smile. We hold hands and say a prayer. Dios hazme este gran favor.