Dimelo Papi | Zabdiel De Jesus

Chapter 27: Puro Dolor

Erick

As I'm home getting ready to go to the studios to meet with all of the boys for a meeting my phone starts getting notifications like crazy. I see that Joel started a group chat with all of the boys and Camila.

Joel: Damn, one night wasn't enough for y'all? 😏

Seba: We could hear you both all the way from here.

Cami: You could hear us watch movies all the way from where you're at Sebas? Stfu

Why did they have to add me to this group chat? Now I have to be reminded that Zabdiel spent the night at Camila's. I remember when I found that out last night when the boys were speaking of it and I had to put on the most fakest smile and act like that didn't break my heart into pieces.

Zabdi: Dejen a Cami en paz 🖕🏼

Zabdiel es el hombre más afortunado del mundo. I think to myself.

Chris: Tenemos todos una junta incluyendo tu Zabdi en media hora. Así que salte de la cama de Camila y vente pa' los estudios.

I decide not to join the group chat and ignore the messages. What would I say anyways? Camila's always telling all of us how they're just friends but I know she has feelings for him and he does as well.

She's always on my mind but I have to get used to the idea that she isn't mine. Love can be a blessing and a curse; a blessing in which the person you love loves you back and a curse in which you know the person you love will never love you back. I've been cursed.

"Erick, te miras muy pensativo." My mom raises an eyebrow at me as she's driving me to the studios.

"Solo estoy cansado." I tell her. "No dormí bien."

"Se nota. Mira tus ojeras..." She examines my face. "¿Estuviste llorando a noche?" She asks and my face gives away the answer.

"Esta bien llorar en vez en cuando." That's all I can say.

"Como tú mamá me duele ver esos ojitos verdes tristes." She says. "Cuéntame. ¿Por qué estabas llorando?"

"Luego te llamo para que vengas por mí después de la junta. Ya me voy por qué se me hace tarde." I change the subject and get off of the car once we arrive at the studios.

"Te miras un poco... upset?" Alan says to me in private. "¿Que tienes?"

"Tu sabes que tengo." I state the obvious. Other than Camila, Alan knows I have feelings for her. He's the only one I've been able to confess that to.

"Sé que te a deber dolido leer todos esos mensajes del group chat." He says. Yes it did Alan, yes it did.

"Si, se siente muy mal." I pout.

"Don't be heartbroken. Muchas nenas se mueren por ti y tú lo sabes. Date la oportunidad con alguien más." He suggests.

"Esto no es un capricho si eso es lo que piensas." I remark. "Ya no puedo seguir resistiendo esta extraña sensación."

Since Alan is the only one that knows about my feelings for Camila he thinks she's just a phase. I think if all of the boys knew about my feelings for her they would think it was just a phase as well. I guess I'm known as being one of the 'players' from the group but it's not like that. Hell, I even thought Camila was a phase at first since she was my celebrity crush but she kept crawling into my mind at the most random moments. Whenever she would crack a smile in front of me my heart would beat rapidly. The way her kind eyes would look at life also had me falling for her.