All I Need to Stay Sane {Lynn Gunn}

I'll Face My Fear Of The Evening

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I woke up before Lynn, sitting up and glancing at her as she breathed peacefully, in and out. I checked the clock, seeing that it was only 6:00 AM. I groaned and lied back down, snuggling up against her side. She sighed and turned over so that she was facing me. She was still asleep as she hooked her arm over my waist.

I closed my eyes and listened to her breathing, playing with the bracelet on her wrist that was lying right between us. I looked at the charms and wondered what each of them meant. Lynn's brows furrowed and I brushed the hair out her face, my hand resting on her cheek. I didn't want to wake her, but I couldn't help admiring how perfect she was. It was still dim in her room, the blinds drawn.

Lynn shifted beside me a few times before she opened her eyes. "Good morning," she mumbled, her voice groggy from sleep. "Good morning," I whispered, burying my face in her neck. I suddenly began to feel tired again, and had no desire to get up and do anything. "What time do you have to leave?" Lynn asked me, her eyes closed once again. "I don't know. I don't think my mom really cares," I admitted, letting out a deep sigh. Lynn thought for a moment before opening her mouth to speak.

"Do you want to lie down for a while longer?"

I nodded my head and curled up beside her. She gripped my waist and pressed her frame against mine, kissing my nose before going back to sleep.

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I woke up without Lynn beside me, her blanket draped over me. I sat up and looked around the room, rubbing my eyes. I heard a shower running, so I figured she was in the bathroom. I noticed my reflection in the mirror and quickly looked away, refusing to look at myself.

I leaned against Lynn's headboard and grabbed my phone, checking the time. It was around 11 AM, Saturday morning.

I texted my mom that I would be home later that evening, hoping that was okay with her. I lied back down for a little bit before I heard Lynn's bedroom door open. She had her damp hair pulled up into a bun and was wearing black jeans and a tank top. "Hey," I mumbled, rolling over. "Hey. You want to borrow some clothes?" she wondered. I had brought my own things but I nodded anyway.

She dug through her drawers and handed me some jeans and a plain black t-shirt. I walked into her bathroom and dressed quickly, brushing my teeth as well.

When I walked back into her room, she was sitting at her desk, typing something into her computer. She turned around, smiling at me. "You look so cute in my clothes," she laughed, reaching her arms out. I walked over to her and sat in her lap, wrapping her arms around me. She spun side to side on her rolley chair, her head leaning against my back.

"You make me happy," I told her, taking her hand inside mine. "I do?"

"Yeah, you do. I mean that," I replied. "You make me happy too, baby," she said, holding me a little tighter. I turned around to look at her and smiled for what felt like the first time in months. I stood up and sat down on her bed, patting the spot beside me. She walked over and tackled me, pushing me down on the bed and burying her head into my neck, laughing.

I let out a yelp, squirming beneath her. "Whyyy," I groaned, trying to turn over. Lynn wouldn't budge so I began to tickle her sides, making her laugh hysterically and roll off of me quickly. "Fuck!" she exclaimed, breathing heavily. I laughed lightly, shaking my head at her.

"What do you want to do today?" Lynn asked me, rolling over and basically lying right on top of me. "Mm, now I don't want to get up," I groaned, curling up against her.

"We could just stay here and hang out," she suggested. I nodded and opened my eyes. "Are you hungry?"

I nodded again and she chuckled, getting up. I followed her out of her room and into the kitchen, watching as she opened the fridge and looked inside. "Wanna make pancakes?" I agreed and she pulled out all of the ingredients, heating up the stove while I mixed the batter.

When the food was ready, Lynn and I sat on the couch and turned on the TV, browsing through the channels. "Dane seems really nice," Lynn stated, looking over at me. I nodded. "Yeah, he's great. He was actually wondering if we wanted to come to a show they're playing. It's going to be really small but he's super excited about it."

"Yeah! That'd be awesome, I can't wait. When is it?" Lynn wondered, sounding excited. She put her empty plate down on the coffee table and crossed her legs, turning her body toward me. "Saturday next week at 7 PM. Dane said he'd send me the address," I answered, scooting closer to her. "Okay! It'll be really fun. I bet they're amazing."

I couldn't help but smile at her. Everything about her was perfect. Her personality, her smile, her eyes, the way she pronounced her words. I wanted to get lost inside of her, never stop looking at her. Never let go of her. She was the one thing that made me happy.

I didn't say anything, just planted my lips against hers and kissed her for a long time, feeling her move closer to me. She placed her hand on my neck and kissed me harder, biting my bottom lip gently. I smiled into the kiss and looked her in the eyes, feeling nothing but happy.

Lynn made me forget about everything else. How I was feeling, my parents, school. I felt like everything would be okay whenever I was around her. She made me nothing but happy. She was my reason to stick around and see how things would play out.

Things were different when I was alone, without Lynn next to me. I tried to close my eyes and think of her whenever I could only feel the need to disappear. Sometimes she would call me and just tell me she was thinking of me and that she misses me. I would do that too, or just admit that I missed hearing her voice.

Then she would laugh and it always sounded beautiful to me. Then she would ask me if I would let her see me the next day, which I always said yes to.

Lynn grinned back at me and kissed me again quickly, then my cheek. "You never fail to make me smile, you know that?" she wondered, taking my hand. I shook my head, never knowing I was capable of making someone smile. "Well you do. You mean so much to me. I'm so glad I met you," she told me, kissing me once again.

I always felt as if I would melt beneath her touch. I felt my eyes begin to water and wrapped my arms around her, smiling to myself. "I'm glad I met you too."

She kissed my forehead as we lied down on the couch, my leg draped across hers, and I was finally content, just listening to the sound of her heartbeat and steady breathing.

This is just a filler chapter haha oops.

QOTD: Have you ever been to a concert? What bands did you see? I've been to 4 I think? I went to Warped tour in 2014, Parks and Devastation Tour in September of the same year, frnkiero andthe cellabration in March of last year, then BFD in June of last year.