All I Need to Stay Sane {Lynn Gunn}

I Would Like To Think That's Not The Only Way

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I showed up at Lynn's house the next day and knocked on the door nervously, hoping that everything would work out and that we wouldn't get in a fight or anything.

I waited for a couple moments before I heard footsteps running and the door was opened, revealing the most beautiful girl I had ever met, the one who always gave me butterflies no matter how long I had known her.

"Hey, come in," she said, opening up the screen door so I could join her inside. I followed her up the stairs and into her bedroom, watching as she closed the door gently behind us. I sat down on her bed and glanced at her walls to see her latest additions of things she had put up. I glanced at a couple photos at us and smiled to myself before turning back to look at her.

"Um...I'm sorry for the other day. I was kind of an asshole and I wasn't sure what to say. I really don't want to lose you and I mean that. It's just hard because I have to figure out what I'm going to do with my band and everything. If that doesn't work out, I'll have to go to a shitty community college and I really don't want to do that," she stated, looking at me with soft eyes.

I nodded. "I understand. I overreacted the other day and it wasn't your fault. You just mean so much to me and I can't imagine ever losing you. And I'm sorry you may not feel the same way. I just want to know what's going to happen to us," I admitted, already getting emotional. Lynn put her hand on my thigh and I felt the butterflies inside of me set themselves loose.

"Of course I feel the same way. I fucking love you. I need to figure shit out with the boys. I want to make this work, believe me," she promised, taking my face in her gentle hands. She connected her lips with mine and it felt like my heart was about to burst. The amount of love I felt radiating from her made me weak and I couldn't remember the last time I had been able to kiss her like this.

Without me even realizing, she wiped the tears trailing down my cheeks and kissed me again. "Don't cry, baby. I'm going to do everything I can to make this work. We'll figure it out, I promise," she told me, resting her forehead against mine. I just smiled and kissed her again, wrapping my arms around her body and resting my head on her shoulder. "I think you're the best thing that ever happened to me," I whispered, holding her tightly. "You're the best thing that happened to me too," she claimed, rubbing gentle circles between my shoulder blades with her thumb, calming me down.

"Hey, you know how prom is coming up?" Lynn wondered, still holding me close and tracing that familiar pattern softly on my back. "Mm," I mumbled, my eyes closed as I listened to her breathing. "Would you maybe want to go with me?" she asked, sounding a little hesitant, even slightly embarrassed. I pulled away and looked her in the eyes, raising my eyebrow. "You, Lyndsey Gunnulfsen, want to go to prom?"

She just nodded, blushing slightly. I grinned at her and nodded my head yes, causing her to look excited and clap her hands together. "I can't believe I'm going to do this," I laughed, covering my face with my hands. "Hey, if it blows, we can ditch and go to the diner or something. You can sleep over after too," she suggested, grabbing my hands and holding them in hers.

"I can't believe on June 1st we'll be done with high school," she muttered, looking stressed out. "Yeah, me too. It's kind of crazy to think about. I'm gonna have to pack all my shit up and bring it to Rhode Island," I replied, realizing exactly how much work I needed to do before classes started.

"I can help. With packing and unpacking. We can drive up there together with your mom or something and have a look around and everything," she offered, looking hopeful. I nodded my head vigorously, wanting very much for her to come with me to unpack and look around my school. It would make me so much more comfortable to know that Lynn would be there with me for at least that day.

"You know I have to leave a couple weeks after school gets out right?" I wondered, lying back on her bed. She nodded and lied down beside me, stretching her leg across mine and resting her head in the crook of my neck. "I wish you would come with me," I mumbled, trying not to let myself cry.

"I want to come too. But there's nothing for me there. I wouldn't have a school to go to. I wouldn't have Brian and Alex to play music with. I mean, maybe, yeah. Rhode Island isn't too far from here but the only trouble is finding a job and a place to go to school. It's too late for my to apply anywhere, so maybe I could wait a year, who knows?" Lynn replied, staring out the window.

It was beginning to rain, and I watched as the tiny raindrops slid down her window, and the grey skies beyond the trees and houses. I shivered a little and Lynn pulled the blanket over us, cuddling closely to me, making me less chilly.

"I love you," she told me, kissing my cheek. "I love you more," was all I could say. Because I think it was true. I loved her so much that it hurt my head and she was all I ever wanted, all I could ever dream of.

And I couldn't stand the thought of losing her and watch her fall in love with someone else.

Hey, if anyone knows how to make covers or would like to make one, I would love to have a proper cover for this story haha. I suck at making covers myself and have no idea what I'm doing so ye. I can follow you and give you credit obviously :)

xoxo claire