Monsters Inside My Head

Black - The Color of My Soul

I am the embodiment of shadow

a sly, slinking entity that isn't really there,

my soul as dark as a new moon sky.

You often do not see me,

this I understand,

for I am as common as an ant.

Dare you step into my nonsensical mind,

I promise you will be horrified.

My thoughts are those of someone who does not wish to be

and yes, it can often be quite scary.

With just a few words I can scare most away,

but you,

you have chosen to stay.

Can you really love the darkness that is my soul?

You think yourself brave enough to face my demons with me?

Come, let us see.

Look into my tired eyes--

can you see my soul dancing inside them?

Do you see the evil glint in her eyes and smile?

Tell me, are you afraid?

You should be.

For she is me,

and I am a dark nobody.

I whisper in your ear,

showing my secret side:

the self hatred and pain.

My soul dances ever more, coming alive now--

yes, I feel it--

she wants to meet you.

Are you ready?

Can you embrace darkness and come back intact?

Do not underestimate her.

I sing of my sorrows,

spin stories of the trials I've endured,

reveal my deepest pain,

my soul now naked before you.

What will you do?

Please, don't come any closer.

I'm already so vulnerable--

I fear your proximity will break me.

Never before have I been so open, so transparent--

I'm very much afraid.

"I know you don't wish to hurt me," I say,

"but I can't shake this fear."

You hold me oh so gently,

something unfamiliar to me.

I do not understand this kindness,

but I welcome it wholeheartedly.

Thank you for being oh so sweet to someone as dark and fucked up as me.