Monsters Inside My Head

Almost Mine - Still Miss You

We never dated,

never even kissed or held hands,

but I swear you broke my heart as if we had.

I watched you grow in character,

learned the pains of your life,

saw you at your best and at your worst,

cared for you so deeply.

I still remember what your arms around me felt like--

such bittersweet bliss.

Your laugh was so contagious,

and you never failed to make me smile.

But there was still turmoil inside you,

something no person or god could fix.

I saw your tears and comforted you,

and yet we were still so far apart.

I was head over heels--

didn't even realize--

and I dare say,

perhaps I was also in love.

To this day I cannot name what exactly drew me to you, but I fell hard and fast; 

the emotions still linger in me today.

From time to time they sneak up on me, making my heart ache for you--

to see you one last time.

You said you had feelings for me--

at long last--

I said I did too,

but then I mentioned my trust issues.

This is when we slowly fell apart.

We were from two different worlds,

unable to see each other often.

And so you met someone else,

completely cutting me out of your life.

I did not cry, but I forever closed my heart because of you.

You were almost mine, and despite all that occurred,

I will always miss you.