Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Tell Him

"Are you sure you don't want to come with me" Tyler said gathering the rest of this things. He stood and turned one of his ankles to the side, almost like a nervous twitch.

Troye smiled softly "Yeah, I-I think I still need to just be here" Troye said and Tyler looked at him sympathetically

"Are you sure, I can stay here if you want" Tyler said

"No, its alright but I'll see you here tomorrow right we can go to the spa and use the hot tub or something" Troye said. Tyler shook his head in agreement and Troye walked him down the stairs to his car.

"I'll Skype you" Troye said, Tyler started his jeep, "Okay" he said

Troye walked back up the stairs, the medication he took before Tyler arrived was weighing on his body. He plopped onto the couch and turned on his computer to watch something on Netflix. Troye felt guilty for not telling Tyler about having to take his medicine in the morning, but he didn't want to worry him. Troye couldn't help it, he didn't want to become dependent on Tyler. His panic attack on Wednesday scared the crap out of him, usually the nurse could help him but in that moment a few days ago all he could think about was Tyler. And that was terrifying.

Troye sank down into the couch cushions, waiting for Tyler's call. His emotions were too much he was going to have to tell Tyler soon because it was tearing him apart. This drawing, addicting, annoying, warm, pulling attraction was love. Spending time with Tyler just made the pain go away but it fueled his emotions. For the first time in months Troye pulled out his poems notebook. He had lost inspiration these last couple months but suddenly he felt the urge to write again, looking down at one of his unfinished poems he continued to write

Because I know that I can't trust myself

to the 3am shadows

I'd rather fuel a fantasy

than deal with his alone

I wanna sleep next to you

and thats all I wanna do right now

so come over now

and talk me down

Troye doodled ocean waves on the bottom of the paper, imagining himself overlooking the water. The breeze crisp yet calming and the sounds of crashing waves over taking his thoughts. The view of a slowly setting sun making him calm. Suddenly a familiar tone blared in the once silent apartment.

"Hi Troye" Tyler said smiling looking at Troye though the camera. The smile made the pain fade a little. Troye was in a torrential down pour and Tyler was the umbrella, the rain wasn't gone but Tyler diverted it. "Hi Ty" Troye said moving to lounge back on his bed, resting his computer on his knees. Because of the position they couldn't see each other's faces but it was still oddly comforting. Troye frowned, here he was again starting to feel better because of this boy.

Troye sniffled and wiped his cheeks with the back of his hands, he wasn't sure when he started crying exactly but the tears were slowing falling down his cheeks Troye heard shifting noises coming from the computer. Troye didn't move the device, he didn't way Tyler to see him crying...again.

"Troye" Tyler said "are you crying"

Troye wiped his cheeks and cleared his throat moving the computer so that his face came into view "No" Troye said faking a weak smile

"Whats going on with you" Tyler asked he could tell something was off, but he thought that today was a good day so he didn't know why troye was upset. "Nothing" Troye said plainly