Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Sleep

3:35am

They got home 2 hours ago and Tyler still couldn't sleep. He felt like he would never sleep again. The voices were back and they were telling him the usual things 'Todd's right' and 'Troye pities you' he thought these things were lies because Troye told him they were.

Troye told him lots of things. Troye told him that he love him and that he was beautiful and that he was special. Tyler didn't feel special. He felt dirty and sad and sick, not special or beautiful. How could a mess like him be beautiful.

Scratch that, the voices were definitely not wrong. This whole thing was Tyler own fault. If he could just be normal none of this would have happened. He would be at Todd's as per usual and they would be content. Allexys wouldn't have seen that mess, he hoped that she didn't give Meghan and Todd too much trouble. She needed her dad, he couldn't be the one to take Todd away.

Although the more he thought about it Todd wasn't really a good dad. He didn't have unconditional love, in fact his love had lots of conditions, ridiculous conditions that lead to unhappiness. You don't need a dad to be happy, you don't need a dad to feel loved. He had Jackie and she provided more love than anyone could imagine. Then there was Troye who didn't seem to need a mom or a dad. He was strong all on his own. Seeing Todd and Tyler fight probably caused him to be distressed. Sometimes Tyler forgot that he was still only 15.

He was young and Tyler was two years older than him and he should be protecting him. Troye was in a foreign country all alone and he was the strongest person Tyler knew.

This was useless. His constantly shuffling in the bed needed to end. He placed a soft kiss on Troye's temple. Troye mumbled something incoherent in his sleep, moving to clutch onto Tyler's body. Tyler giggled as Troye's eyebrows furrowed while he looked for Tyler with his eyes closed.

"T-tilly?" Troye grumbled sleepily in a raspy voice

Tyler moved his hand to Troye's back, rubbing slow circles against his jumper. Troye hummed and smiled softly as he drifted in and out of a deeper sleep. His hand was rested next to his face on the pillow, resembling a dainty princess.

"pup- puppies" Troye grumbled and Tyler laughed quietly

"home-e" he mumbled again as Tyler continued to rub his back. Tyler leaned down and kissed him again lulling the tired boy back to sleep.

"Til-tilly"

A moment later Troye drifted into a solid sleep. Tyler gazed at him before getting up and going down the stairs, leaving Troye asleep in the room.

The time was already approaching 4am and Tyler walked into the kitchen at the sound of a coffee cup being placed on the granite countertop. He peered in quickly to see Jackie making herself a cup of hot coffee.

"Oh you are up early" Jackie smiled as the coffee pumped out of the machine

Tyler rubbed his tired eyes "Couldn't sleep" he mumbled

Jackie sighed wrapping her arms around her son "I'm really, really sorry about all this Tyler" she said quietly as he hugged him tight

"Y-you still love me right?" Tyler asked nervous tears gathering in his eyes

"Mathew Tyler Oakley why would you even ask that, I love you no matter what. who you love doesn't affect that, what you do does not affect that. All that matters is who you are as a person." Jackie said wiping away her son's tears "You are a beautiful and brilliant young man, and Todd's words were blind ignorance"

"T-then why d-does it f-f-eel like he's r-right" Tyler cried

Jackie held him tighter. She was at a loss for word about what her ex-husband's statements did to her precious boy. She knew that Tyler struggled but she doesn't know how or how sever it is. Her only hope was that this turn of events didn't drive him over the edge.

"You can't listen to him" Jackie said firmly

A sob ripped out of Tyler's throat "I-I'm sorry mom"

"shhh" Jacks hushed "shhh, Tyler you didn't do anything wrong. I love you your family loves you and Troye loves you, you didn't anything wrong honey"

Tyler hiccuped into Jackie's chest, she push him forward to look at his face. She brushed his fallen hair out of his eyes. "You did nothing wrong, please understand that" Jackie said softly "you did nothing wrong"

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Troye flopped onto his back, quickly hearing the giggle of his boyfriend. Troye groaned and curled into the pillows again, covering his face from the outside world. God he fucking hated mornings.

Then he heard another very distinct giggle coming from his left. "why are you already laughing at me" Troye grumbled

"you're cute when you roll around in the sheets" Tyler said

Troye smirked "Mhmm next time you should join me, we can roll around together. with less clothes" he said and Tyler looked at him in shock and maybe a bit or horror

"Oh my god Troye you are like eight calm down" Tyler bit back

Troye laughed "five actually"

"Mhmm well five year olds don't talk about sex"

Troye smiled and batted his eye lashes "I wanna put my thingy in your thingy" he said in a child-like tone

"Troye Sivan that is gross!" Tyler barked causing Troye to laugh wildly. Troye leaded up and captured Tyler's lips in a sweet kiss

"Dirty boi" Troye said winking and Tyler rolled his eyes. He wasn't really annoyed, in fact he found Troye's sudden courage really, attractive.

"I don't know about you, but a lazy netflix day sounds too good right now" Troye said

"That's all I need" Tyler smiled, snuggling into Troye's side

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Jackie climbed the stairs, she called the boys over 10 minutes ago for lunch and they hadn't come down. Normally Jackie couldn't recall if she would have noticed but a lot of the kids were out today with Ken or Todd's or at a friends house.

See peered into the door way of Tyler's room trying not to outwardly 'aww' at the sight in front of her. Tyler leaning up against the head board with this arms wrapped around Troye who was sitting in between his legs. Tyler's head was leaning agaist the wood and Troye was nuzzled into the embrace. Both boys where sleeping soundly. Troye's loose curls tossed wildly as his pressed into Tyler's chest. Tyler's glasses sliding off his nose. It was quite the sight.

Giggling she snapped a picture of the sleeping lovebirds before scurrying out of the room again.

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A/N: 

Hi little love bugs (thats your new name deal with it) 

So after some major procrastination and a small melt down I finished my (rough draft) of my paper so I got like a rush to finish this chapter. Idk what it even as tbh...you like it?

Also thanks to Jess for keeping me sane and on track with my work and life. I was like really going through it and I never really tell anyone and you really helped me. I'm really glad that I stated talking to you that we are internet friends ilysb (I'm gonna go before this gets anymore sappy oml). But go follow her on twitter @plucklyoakley, she is a cool flop I guess. 

ALSO V V IMPORTANT...pick a song: I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz  or Lucky by Jason Mraz

Okay thats it, good luck with your life

Katie :)