Stand By You (Troyler AU)

Empty

—Time skip Wednesday—

Tyler sat it the corner seat of his Multimedia class Troye sat to this right and Hannah was siting next to him. A lot of Tyler's old lunch table was in the class. Zoe was there and so was her younger brother, Joe. Also Grace and Shane and Trevor were sitting in the front row of the classroom. Tyler just soaked in his surroundings.

Tyler's bad day from Friday turned into a bad weekend, Troye coaxing small amounts of food and water into his body every couple of hours. Tyler felt ashamed, the second that Troye left for work he was in the bathroom- ridding his body of the calories and the substances making him fat. Troye had no idea and Tyler felt incredibly guilty, but what else could he do? He felt so lost and he didn't want to push that onto Troye, Troye has severe anxiety and overwhelming him would be wrong. They were Tyler's problems so Tyler could deal with them.

"Hello everybody my name is Mamire Hart and I am going to be teaching this shit show of a class. Its going to be a pun experience" Mamrie paused waiting for people to laugh at her joke. Tyler laughed and Troye rolled his eyes Hannah joined in adding something stupid to the end of the pun. Before Mamrie started talking again

"Okay lets get straight to the point because all you kids really wanna know it how to pass the class" She said "So you guys are all going to create individual YouTube channels. First project all you have to do is film an introduction video...like of random facts about you. Something simple so that if people find your channel they can learn something about you. Keep it short and sweet" The students nodded in agreement as the bell rang releasing them to go home.

Troye and Tyler walked silently down the hall. Tyler gazed at his feet as he walked, today felt a lot like another bad day but not too bad. So Tyler labeled it as a medium day, It wasn't a good that that was for sure. Good days made him feel warm and today he didn't feel that, he felt....empty. Tyler would't label it as depressed, He wasn't sad but he wasn't happy. Tyler would laugh and joke and smile during the day or when he was with people but when he was was alone and its night forgets how to feel.

Tyler hated it when he was in such a fantastically giddy mood and than one simple mention of food or him thinking about his sexuality made him think "oh" and then suddenly he got this empty feeing in his chest and he got nauseous and his real world crumbles and he just wants to lay under a blanket and close his eyes and fall asleep and never wake up. Which was horrible in itself but then he looked at Troye and suddenly a world without Troye seemed like no world at all, and that was scary. Because 5 months ago Tyler could handle these things unhealthily on his own but now even the unhealthy ways caused him pain and he felt like he was drowning up also not in water. Again he felt everything, yet he felt nothing.

"Yo Ty" Troye's voice finally broke Tyler out of this thoughts and Troye tilted his head to look at Tyler with concern. Tyler felt guilty once again for making Troye worry, Troye was always worried. "Like I said, I called out of work" Tyler turned to face him, there was no need for Troye to skip work Tyler would be fine, it was just a bad day. "We can hang at my apartment or your house it's up to you" Troye said

Troye couldn't hide his concern, he was so worried, so fearful. His anxiety constantly at unthinkable levels. He rolled his eyes at the irony, if he still talked to his old therapist she would tell Troye that he was overworking. But that wasn't true he loved Tyler and he'd come to accept that now. If you asked Troye last week he would have told you that he and Tyler were doing okay.

Life's funny like that. Just when you like you've got it all figured out, just when you finally beginning to plan something, get excited about it and fell like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the wind blows the other way, North is suddenly South and East is West and you're lost.

"Lets go to your apartment, switch things up" Tyler said with a weak smile, Troye sighed...he wanted the real smile

—time skip friday—

The bad day that turned into a bad weekend had transformed into a bad week. But this weekend was already starting off better than last because Tyler was here to pick Troye up from work which means he was feeling good enough to get out of bed. All of which were good signs, except they were both excused because sleeping through the night was now out the window, and the weight of their simple human emotions were weighting them both down.

Troye yawned, and watched Tyler drive in deep concentration. Troye admiring every aspect of him as Tyler's eyes flickered across the various roads and pathways. Troye was lost in his beauty, a beauty that Tyler himself didn't see. Tyler's little world was full of distorted fun house mirrors, none of which portrayed his true self. He was beautiful, he was funny, he was charming (he was sexy) but Tyler didn't see it.

"Tilly" Troye said, surprised by his own voice

"yeah" Tyler said turing to face Troye

Troye didn't really have anything to say he just wanted, talk? he didn't really know. "never mind" Troye said

"No what" Tyler said

"I don't know" Troye said a blush and smile spreading on his tired cheeks

"What do you mean, you don't know" Tyler laughed a smile adorning his face

"I forgot" Troye said in a higher pitch shrugging his shoulders

Tyler laughed, it was nice this moment was happy like things were before Tyler had his bad day. His emotions were all over the place. He was so torn he wanted so badly to tell Troye that he was gay. But to tell Troye that he needed to fully admit that to himself. He labeled himself as bisexual so long ago when he was still dating Beth, a period of his life he rather not think about. It was a term that he used to feel safe, he didn't just like boys he liked girls too, thats not as bad. right?

Tyler pulled up at to Troye apartment and pulled into the parking spot labeled for Troye's apartment. The boys hopped out of the car and walked up the stairs quietly it was already 7 at night and Tyler was going to walk him to his door and go home to sleep.

"I have work from 5-8 tomorrow, why don't you just sleep here?" Troye asked opening the door to his apartment Tyler smiled, they hadn't spent a night apart all week, it was nice to sleep next to Troye. They shared a bed all the time now, Tyler was warm and Troye was always cold, they were the perfect mix.

Tyler and Troye walked through the door of the apartment flipping their shoes off. Troye walked into the kitchen opened the fridge and groaned, he needed to go food shopping but not right now. He swung the door closed and walked back into the living room. Tyler was sitting in the bend in the couch with his knees to his chest, head resting atop his knees and his eyes were heavy. Troye approached him tugging him lightly off the sofa.

"Lets go to bed love" Troye said walking further down the hall to his room Tyler slipped his jumper off and climbed into bed in a black t-shirt, Troye left his jumper on and slipped into bed beside Tyler. Troye rested his head on Tyler's shoulder and they both felt at peace.

Their worlds may be falling apart, the ocean waves ripping their ships to sink, the hurricane wind tearing way at their homes, the tsunami flooding their neighborhoods but when they were together it was a calm before the inevitable storm

Laying there both boys felt a little less empty

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A/N:

I have determined that I shouldn't listen to Adele while I write...

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Katie :)